The ways Nelly has changed my life

Occupied

2011-10-03T20:21:00.004-04:00

I can't help but wonder...

What is #occupywallstreet really going to accomplish?

Don't get me wrong: I am as against these corrupt profiteers profiteering, feeding off of the 99% below them: all of us.

It's best to fight. Peaceful noncompliance.

#occupysavannah next Sunday.

If I can't be in NYC, it'll be good to at least be nearby and protest for change.

plop plop plop

2011-09-10T18:57:00.004-04:00

So, am I the only person who saw since 9/11/01 that it's kind of creative and Hollywood-ish to orchestrate a scenario where two planes lapsed all of the air restrictions and the defense system to strike two buildings and, somehow, cause them both to collapse (and the building next to them arbitrarily several hours later.)

Not only that but the day seems creative too? Anyone with prior knowledge of living in America knows that 911 is a number dialed in times of trouble and, oh look at the silly American way we read dates 9/11.

It all just seems arranged.

Oil.

Brown people.

Fabricated enemies.

I mean this is stuff that has been beaten to death in the ten years it's been around but does that mean we should just turn the other way?

*edit*

It was an inside job and yesterday was as good as a public celebration of the day that came ten years earlier.

It was a false flag pretty much beyond a reasonable doubt and I have no idea why no one has risen up and questioned it.

light beers and and the super mario brothers

2011-09-06T04:42:00.004-04:00

I edited.

A lost vision.

i feel illiterate,

Purposeless,

Powerless,

drugged,

entranced,

stuck,

lost,

Faithless

I need to learn to have faith in myself.

To not throw out cans.

Things made of aluminium can be salvaged for your human money.

I feel awful.

>.<;

Ode to Mario

2011-09-04T21:06:00.005-04:00

Fucking long jump down teh god-damn stairs
Save me some time

May the stars shine down on you

In this universe, Luigi gets the princess

ffffffffffffffffffff

2011-08-09T22:16:00.003-04:00

I hate being stressed with no one to talk to.
I hate hating.
Hate is hateful.

Counter-productive.
I wish I wasn't me.

Mutiny!

2011-07-23T05:30:00.003-04:00

You say you want a revolution

The hate spread by American media is leaking into our minds and all we need to do is to coexist peacefully.
To make money from death is unbecoming.

By the way,

2011-06-30T22:13:00.005-04:00

Michele Bachmann is a fucking idiot.
She spoke of carbon dioxide as being a "harmless gas" and that our presence isn't responsible for it's otherwise being here.
Not completely true, I mean at least it's natural.
Sort of.

I really want this woman, who we've voted to represent us, to lock herself in her car, in her garage and then tell everyone (if she's not dead, since it's a way to fucking commit suicide) that Co2 isn't harmless.

This is the country we live in.
These are the people dictating our lives.

These people choose either to be ignorant or be in the know and deliberately misguide the public for their own gain.

I am ashamed to be American.

Fuck this country. We're naught but a blight on this Earth.

Regarding felines,

2011-05-27T19:54:00.004-04:00

Cats have four legs
most of the time.
sometimes they have three or even two
and fewer cats go without legs than the ones who continue on with four
four legged cats generally are more agile than those with fewer legs
since i doubt a cat with only one hind leg has the push and power to jump very high if at all
and dentists are expensive
cat dentists
cats who have four legs though i'm sure they deal with cats who have fewer limbs
i'm not sure

I am of course speaking of limbless cats w/ no prosthetic limbs.
Robot cats win everything.

A fragment of a memory

2011-05-02T01:23:00.007-04:00

Osama Bin Laden is dead, apparently.

It's amazing how we're told so much so to celebrate the death (or perhaps murder) of another human being. Keep in mind, I'm not sympathizing with Bin Laden but I was NEVER affected by him except by the twats who fervently desired his death, regardless the cost.

At what cost did we abide just to kill another man? How many people suffered, gave their lives or simply endured hardship just to see a man who was allegedly tied to the 9/11/01 "attacks" killed?

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy." ~~-MLK Jr.~~

This is a title, though not the title this entry needs right now.

2011-04-27T19:10:00.006-04:00

Faux News keeps backpedaling about the Obama "born in America" issue, as do others (like Michelle Bachman).
On Facebook, Faux News made a post regarding the release of his birth certificate and I just have to wonder why this is even an issue.

I understand by law in order to be president you must have been birthed in the United States soil.

Have ANY other [white] presidents ever had to show their birth certificate to prove that they were born in the United States?
Not to my knowledge...

Why is Obama on the chopping block in such a regard?
Because his father is from Kenya?
Kenya is not America. That must get on people's nerves. How can a president have an immigrant father? Not like that's EVER happened before.

Because his middle name is Hussein?
We've been taught to hate people who practice Islam, Arabs especially. We were taught to despise Saddam Hussein, who was previously an ally to the United States. But now Barack's middle name has been demonized. And even then, what's in a name? Last I checked, we're told not to judge a person by his name, nor by the color of his skin. But who the fuck am I?

Because he's [half] black?
Very likely a key reason.
There are a lot of people in America. A lot of diverse views on race. Racism is still very much alive. Proof lies in the fact that there are more African Americans in jail today than there were slaves in the 1850's, which is interesting at least. Though that has a lot to do with the "war on drugs"...

What it comes down to overall is: who cares?
There are more important things the president should be worried about than "whether he was born in America" or not.
He's going to do his job. He's going to say what needs to be said.
When it comes down to it though, he's done an abysmal job as president and will be and was the last time I will ever vote, especially seeing as how I live in the reddest state in the USA so my vote meant absolutely nothing. Not that it would have even if this was a blue state.

Whatever though. I'm not speaking on anything I know for certain. Just beliefs.
And I believe I, you, no one without heaps of money have absolutely any say in absolutely anything.

So sit back and enjoy getting pushed closer and closer into slavery as your government benefits are cut in every facet of your life and laws and punishments for breaking them are made more and more severe.

Whatever though.
Whatever.

*Quick update*

Donald Trump is scary. So fucking melodramatic, making a big deal over absolutely nothing.
Not only that but he's gloating about it, as if he is the reason it's out now and we even needed to question it in the first place and the only reason we did is because he's fucking half black and white people are afraid of that even being possible that the United States has a leader who isn't 100% white. It's disgusting and it shows just how far the USA hasn't come.
It just makes me sad that after almost three years the right is still concerned over his race when Bush and Cheney committed war crimes "protecting" citizens from "terror" that's not even real.
A forefather of the US, James Madison, said it best: "If tyranny and oppression come to this land, it will be in the guise of fighting a foreign enemy."

Oh well. Some of my writing may be difficult to read and understand since I've been jumping around in mostly troubled by all the wrong in the country.
Blah ._.;

The Great American Nightmare

2011-04-08T02:58:00.003-04:00

It's solely my fault, surely but it took until recently to see that I'm nowhere near as special as I was presented to be from primary throughout secondary school (yes, I am using British terms because "elementary through high school" sounds less sophisticated).

Anyway,
I threw it away. Dropped out of high school for lack of desire to continue and be held back for at least another year [due sheerly to laziness], joined the US Army as being my "easy way out": lodging and regular pay for at least four years because I was unsure where my true talent lay.

Life comes to a crashing halt 16/11/2006 when I am struck by a seventeen year old driver whilst en route to meet my (now ex) girlfriend and her Lance Corporal brother in celebration of my tentative entry into the Army.

I wake up, sob story aside, with no one and nothing, save a pile of paper money and no direction.

I grew up thinking I was better than everyone else save the people I called friend.
I grew up expecting great things of myself because I was told I was capable of great things. What great things? I have no relative skill in much of anything, be it machine or otherwise.

And I don't want to drop my current views and work a mundane, going nowhere, change-nothing job.
I want, I need purpose that's beyond this place. Something bigger. Something to make even a slight difference that's beyond asking someone if they'd prefer paper to plastic.
The last thing I want is to be another cog in the machine.
But even so, I wish it were another life where money wasn't necessary to survive.

But my life is falling apart. The economy is awful, I need regular money and truly I am unsure how much longer I will be "in a relationship."

I don't know where to start and it's driving me insane.
I hate to be told by tone of voice or body language that I am nothing but a disappointment, a regret.
I hate being brushed aside as if I'm not important and I hate being taken advantage of, which is one reason why making new friends is difficult.

I just don't know where to go.
I don't know what to do,
All I can do is dream of a better time.

Which is why I may as well leave you with a poem:

Once

We sat untouched, unscathed,
Beneath the shade of trees,
We shared our dreams, a proverbial fruit,

But now reality has left us beaten and battered,
The shade which had previously harbored us has all but vanished,
The fruits of our dreams have been reduced to cores,

And now we are lost, running,
Wiping the tears from our eyes,
We cling to dreams all but lost, fearing we may lose it all,

There is little certainty left,
What will become of us?

One thing is certain,

Hopeless dreamers we are,
Eternal dreamers we will forever be,
Sitting, sharing, running, clinging,
Under cerulean skies.

Words.

2011-04-03T00:51:00.003-04:00

This is disgusting.

Something needs to be done about this fascist, callous, merciless evil government.

Why the fuck would an aged couple with legitimate health issues be thrown into jail over a naturally grown herb? Why is there no sympathy given for it's medicinal use and by a doctor no less?

Everything is heading in the wrong direction and we've lost the reins to do anything about it. We elect these greedy, corrupt heinous criminals and put them into office expecting them to represent us and our "best interests", the entire time shrugging ~$3.50 (and higher) gas prices, higher taxes and cuts in every government program that affects us all while the affluent receive massive tax breaks.

Oh, and they send our sons and daughters overseas to die in attempts to do who knows what. Rich old men conserving and protecting property by sending our youths to die.

It's disgusting.

I'll leave you with this; I've said my piece:

I feel like Charlie Sheen

2011-03-27T12:22:00.004-04:00

So, here's a discussion I had with a religious zealot, a boy I met in a Columbia, South Carolina vocational rehabilitation center.

The video igniting the discussion is:

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=dfd_1301155650

Submitted for your approval:

Great conversations are great

2011-03-27T01:45:00.006-04:00

Here's a really good conversation:
Briefly, to introduce Ferenheit, he is a friend I met whilst playing Final Fantasy XI some years back and he's been a friend throughout. He also drew all of my avatars and is, in fact the creator and the talented artist of the webcomic on my page titled Three Hole Punch. The conversation is via AOL Instant Messenger.

chaser dragoon 12:04 am

i mean

i guess it's moderately drastic

or was

Ferenheit 12:05 am

and for the month of april they arent charging anyone for [Final Fantasy] XI

chaser dragoon 12:05 am

i mean i'm sure it's still poor that way but not as much as after the immediate

Ferenheit 12:05 am

for the inconvennience

chaser dragoon 12:05 am

nice

i mean

it's a for real tragedy

and

i mean

it sucks

you know?

i don't know how it's going on now

Ferenheit 12:06 am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sEI1AUFJKw&feature=player_embedded

chaser dragoon 12:06 am

live updates kind of ended

once they told the american public once they don't like dwelling on the story

chaser dragoon 12:07 am

rofl

i think japan is smarter than we are

because they are forced to learn languages

because no matter what they do

hiragana, katakana, kanji and the english alphabet

or perhaps the roman alphabet

have to be learned

chaser dragoon 12:10 am

i think it's possible that

Ferenheit 12:10 am

did you see what was going around the japanese forums in response to the american effort in japan for the disaster?

chaser dragoon 12:10 am

learning multiple ways to communicate even if only by speech expands your mind

what was it?

Ferenheit 12:10 am

this is right out of the forums

“As expected of our friends!”

“USA! USA!”

“They’re so handsome. It’s like a movie, really.”

“I could cry. We’re truly grateful, America!”

“Sorry we were so hard-hearted. It seems America was our only friend after all.”

“They are really used to this stuff, aren’t they?”

“They really are tool cool. What is this sense of security I feel…”

“Please make Japan a state.”

“Guys who have seen actual combat are in a different class.”

“They are heroes, seriously.”

“As expected of our master! Japan will remain by your side as your Pochi forever!”

“Rather than seeing our government’s incomprehensible press conferences, seeing the US army on the ground is much more reassuring.”

“The SDF isn’t bad, but seeing this you can really tell how badly Japanese lack decisiveness.”

“I got wet when I saw this on the news. America can have me any time!”

“They seriously look too cool! USA!! USA!! USA!! USA!!”

“The USA is truly Japan’s ally!”

“If God made the world into a feature film America would be the protagonist.”

“Americans may be stupidly optimistic but they are certainly brave and believe in justice.”

“It’s amusing that we can rely on another nation’s armed forces more than we can our own government…”

“I cried!”

chaser dragoon 12:11 am

holy shit

are you serious

Ferenheit 12:12 am

yeah I know right

yeah

chaser dragoon 12:12 am

holy shit

i mean

that's hard to believe

i mean

Ferenheit 12:12 am

kinda makes you want to volunteer help right now huh ._.

chaser dragoon 12:12 am

i haven't experiences their hardships and their trauma

but

Ferenheit 12:12 am

but my money will have to do my talking for me for now >.<

chaser dragoon 12:12 am

or rather so,

but

it's not fair

if that's true

that they are incredibly thankful for our humanitarian efforts

then it's not fair

Ferenheit 12:13 am

Its so often you see another country just bash america. And I can understand why, but its never 100% necessary

chaser dragoon 12:13 am

because

it's not even that

because i bash america

Ferenheit 12:13 am

lol

chaser dragoon 12:13 am

we're terrible, evil and greedy people

a greedy nation

we're taught to be that way

it's all sociological

and

people in america

Ferenheit 12:14 am

Sure, but we have never failed to extend what we have when another country needed it lol. We are greedy, totally.

chaser dragoon 12:14 am

were saying that god caused the tsunami

because

Ferenheit 12:14 am

But we never NOT help when needed

chaser dragoon 12:14 am

of pearl harbor

and there were several

Ferenheit 12:14 am

as overwhelming as those reports are that is 39% of evangelical people who said those comments

chaser dragoon 12:14 am

people had no sympathy for japan and it's a large majority

Ferenheit 12:14 am

but you hear the reports and it sounds like so much more

chaser dragoon 12:15 am

it's just disgusting

it disgusts me

i have sympathy for japan on a humanitarian level

Ferenheit 12:15 am

Definately. Such comments are not only out of line, they are inhuman.

chaser dragoon 12:15 am

indeed

i agree

chaser dragoon 12:16 am

it just sickens me though

Ferenheit 12:16 am

But always remember, its the ones with the loudest voices that give a country/people their image. The silent are actually many, and they are on the ground right now helping

chaser dragoon 12:16 am

yes

though

partially

i disagree

because

we have such a precense(sp) on the internet

that people judge us that way

and stereotypes

Ferenheit 12:17 am

I can see some of the stuff coming out of say, Iraq, and judge the whole people based on that. The ones with the loud voices are the extremists. That doesnt make them all that way

chaser dragoon 12:17 am

well

i mean

to my knowledge

Ferenheit 12:18 am

Or canadians for example

nuff said

chaser dragoon 12:18 am

and mine knowledge is somewhat grand

Ferenheit 12:18 am

lol

chaser dragoon 12:18 am

(muahahaha)

chaser dragoon 12:18 am

bush is the reason

he represented us

as a people

and he ruined our reputation

Ferenheit 12:18 am

yeah. He was that voice

chaser dragoon 12:18 am

or credibility

our*

Ferenheit 12:18 am

and it was that one loud voice that gave us the image

chaser dragoon 12:18 am

yes

so i can see your point there but now that he did that

that that's over

and done with

our reputation is in place as is

though i know what you mean because

obama has changed people's hopes

brought them up

higher

Ferenheit12:20 am

I dont think I can remember a time when america hasnt sent aid to a disaster area in all the world. Yeah we are greedy bastards. Materialistic and vain. But we have never failed to extend a hand

chaser dragoon 12:20 am

yeah

because

it's expected of us

but that's just me being me

i'd never trust the government to do anything unless in the end they'd benefit from it

Ferenheit 12:21 am

Sure but we dont have to live up to that expectation. And yeah, if EU gets fucked up tomorrow, and we send aid, a month from now they will probably be talking shit about the country again.

But thats just who we are I guess.

chaser dragoon 12:21 am

even if it's having an ally that cool recooperate and aid us in the future

or to make sure they don't turn on us if/when the rest of the world does

could* not cool

jesus christ

Ferenheit 12:22 am

But yeah. Something to think about tonight, maybe even sleep a little better over, or even compose a blog about..... japan appreciates what we are doing and they will probably be one of our closest allies... for all time

chaser dragoon 12:22 am

yeah

because

if that's how the people think

they won't forget that, being the type of people they are

Ferenheit 12:23 am

you know how internet forums are. No one gives a shit what people think about their opinion. They are gonna be brutally honest. And the people right now, are appreciative whole heartedly

chaser dragoon 12:23 am

the problem is

if the positions were reversed completely

based on the type of people we are

we'd forget

based once again on sociology

and how we behave as a society in my eyes

chaser dragoon 12:24 am

i have little hope

Ferenheit 12:25 am

if things were reversed im sad to say I think we would be dragging ourselves out of the pit alone. Maybe england will give a crap... but something tells me we would do it alone off our own strength.

If its out of stupid pride or cause no one wants to help who knows

chaser dragoon 12:25 am

well

yeah

that's true

i mean

i'm sure canada would peek in and see what was up

only because they would feel obligated to

and mexico would continue to immigrate

not really affected by whatever disaster were to befall the united states

Ferenheit 12:26 am

And it would be a case of... shit hits us and then other countries who have been hit with such disasters would be like "See how you like it now" even though we sent aid

chaser dragoon 12:26 am

god dude i love being high i use words i NEVER use

Ferenheit 12:26 am

chaser dragoon 12:27 am

i think it's all bushes fault

i mean that's all that's in my head now

bush was an awful president

who fumbled his own words and didn't know many

him and his cabinet made terrible decisions

9/11 was the government's doing, with very little doubt

it's all show

chaser dragoon 12:28 am

and now that we, the people have lost all power

we can sit back and watch as the world burns

Ferenheit 12:28 am

We are where we are now and we cant do anything about it now except maybe try to climb back out :/

chaser dragoon 12:28 am

or we can do something about it

Ferenheit 12:29 am

saying is always easier than doing though

chaser dragoon 12:29 am

of course

which is why i don't expect it

money is power

money is everything

Ferenheit 12:29 am

I mean, think about it.. .what would it REALLY take to get back in the good view of the world? I cant think of a single goddamn thing really

not one

chaser dragoon 12:30 am

money provides sustenance, glee, joy

because

there isn't one

it's not as much america

as it is the way of life

chaser dragoon 12:30 am

like i said

money is power

we ALL spend money

every human being on the planet

except maybe some of those in africa

and i envy them

by that logic though

Ferenheit 12:31 am

they eat uncooked meat ._. ive seen it

chaser dragoon 12:31 am

the economy is our 'god'

we pray to it, we feed it and it runs us

that's just how it is

and those who have the most money

run the country

run the world

the smartest, the richest people

chaser dragoon 12:32 am

they have the power and they move their pawns, the politicians in whatever direction they want

to form the world as they please

Ferenheit 12:33 am

So maybe we need to grab a few nukes and threaten the entire goddamn world ._. one entity completely seperate from any country or goverment. And say "if you dont play nice with each other we will take out both sides of the conflict"

chaser dragoon 12:33 am

and to get richer and more powerful

Fernheit 12:33 am

If only though

chaser dragoon 12:33 am
if only
what kind of society
real quick
not to change the subject and i'm not really
but
what kind of society would make laws
as to what you are allowed to put into your body
sort of a weed comment
mostly a weed comment

Ferenheit 12:34 am
one with control issues ;x

chaser dragoon 12:34 am
it just makes no sense
my smoking harms absolutely no one
or rather

chaser dragoon 12:34 am
maybe it does because
it was a catalyst
in my seeing things for how they really are
for my understanding the way life is

Ferenheit 12:35 am
only if you use said opportunity to do harm to another ;x if you just chill at home and play some games to pass the time wtf then

chaser dragoon 12:35 am
dude
i mean
i don't know if you've ever been high from marijuana
and
i don't know if you've ever been drunk
but
they are both very different things

Ferenheit 12:36 am
lol

chaser dragoon 12:37 am
drinking is more associated with violence and acting on unsavory thoughts

Ferenheit 12:37 am
one is nigh enlightenment if done correctly and the other is rambling, vomiting, and leud suggestions towards those of the opposite sex?

chaser dragoon 12:37 am
marijuana is more
chill
peaceful
relaxing
but contemplating

Ferenheit 12:38 am
well look at the culture we had natively that made it popular. The very notion was for peace if I recall

chaser dragoon 12:38 am
well
that was after
the hippies
and whatnot
peace, love
etc

chaser dragoon 12:39 am
but even back when george washington was president
it was a law to grow hemp
and there were smoking lounges in the northeast back then
with hashish and marijuana which are both like the same thing
but yeah man
we used to be much more liberal

chaser dragoon 12:41 am
more free
just took the wrong people to assume power
and try to hold our freedoms for more "safety"

Ferenheit 12:42 am
we gave them power technically ._. unless we are to assume a more... sinister method to their election to office

chaser dragoon 12:42 am
well we did give them power
but it's not like they said "we're going to start a war"
so,
it might not even be them

Ferenheit 12:43 am
true but it amazes me how sometimes... we gave the same person power twice

chaser dragoon 12:43 am
it might be a higher human power
well
we did that because of the war he started

Ferenheit 12:44 am
you started it, you finish it kinda shit? lol
like a slap on the wrist while still giving him another ice cream cone ._.

chaser dragoon 12:45 am
well i mean

chaser dragoon 12:45 am
during a wartime
the mass majority won't want to hand power to another man
unless he's doing an awful job wherever he was when reelected

chaser dragoon 12:47 am
osama bin laden actually
cannot be captured

Ferenheit 12:48 am
Do we even know if he is still alive? @.@

chaser dragoon 12:48 am
there was never enough to tie him to the attacks of septemeber 11th
so we were never, ever looking for him
bush is and the bin ladens are for real like
associates
not osama but his brothers
or relatives
and i mean that's word but
it's like
everything you see
on the news anyhow
is a lie
or rather
not nearly as believable

chaser dragoon 12:49 am
when they hit certain keywords
i don't trust it
ferenheit
you're a pretty cool fellow

chaser dragoon 1:06 am
but it's all gonna be okay
we can only hope
and regardless
no use complaining about it
what's done is done and we can only blame ourselves for allowing it to become this way

Ferenheit 1:07 am
Ah yes, one of my favorite quotes...
Hope against hope... such an endearing human trait, Im touched... really...

chaser dragoon 1:08 am
so we can do something about it or say it's out of our hands to make change and sit back and watch as we burn to the ground
i think we'll do the latter

chaser dragoon 1:08 am
it's the most logical position to take

Ferenheit 1:08 am
if history is anything to go bym and it usually is

chaser dragoon 1:08 am
to put trust in the people we elected to office to make the change we desire
that we'll never get because in truth they're not in power
you know what i mean?
am i hitting home with any of this or are you just justifying it by the fact that i'm somewhat inebriated
i really want to know tat
that*

Ferenheit 1:10 am
I never try to justify you, my friend. You do it all on your own. You havent said anything to me before in these conversations that makes me go "....."

chaser dragoon 1:10 am
i see
i just want you to see and understand my perspective
since i'm sitting here pouring myself out
in a sense

Ferenheit 1:11 am
This would make for some good blogging as well. Something to keep in the back of your mind
The problem with blogs is, you dont get responses in real time like with a good conversation
you get them all after the fact
and then whats the use

chaser dragoon 1:12 am
more often than not
on topics of this regard
i get no responses
no comments
no opinions

Ferenheit 1:13 am
bah ._.

chaser dragoon 1:13 am
that's the issue with a subject like tis
this

Ferenheit 1:13 am
if we are to become a better country, should we even keep the current party system? It seems to me a lot of good is fucked in the ass simply because the wrong side or the enemy party is backing it

chaser dragoon 1:14 am
which is, granted, a good majority of my more recent blogs
i think capitalism is a mistake

chaser dragoon 1:15 am
because eventually
or perhaps immediately but i was not alive throughout the life of capitalism
and we write the history

Ferenheit 1:15 am
Ive never been able to wrap my mind around opposing something that is obviously beneficial for the people just because that other party wants it done.... wtf srsly

chaser dragoon 1:15 am
oh sorry
wealth makes power
and power writes history
that may not have been how it started but i am unfortunately ignorant to the exact workings of the past

Ferenheit 1:16 am
and so does the church sometimes =.= but they are wealthy so... wouldja look at that lol

chaser dragoon 1:16 am
the church
i se

chaser dragoon 1:17 am
see
as a sham
christianity created this nation, regardless of the founding father's religious views
fathers'

Ferenheit 1:17 am
the whole "japan deserved it" thing, a lot of that was from religious groups who say the shinto/buddism of the japanese people as a slap to gods face
and that the heathens 'deserved it"

chaser dragoon 1:18 am
yeah
it's disgusting
i don't know if you're religious
you don
don't seem it but

Ferenheit 1:18 am
some bitch was on youtube praising god for doing it but I think that shit got taken down

chaser dragoon 1:18 am
i am unaware as to your faith
ignorant, perhaps but you've never shared it with me

chaser dragoon 1:19 am
and i think that was a troll
it's irrelvant now

Ferenheit 1:19 am
if you wanted a definition for my personal believes I think it falls as
Apathetic Agnosticism

chaser dragoon 1:20 am
yeah

Ferenheit 1:20 am
if you would like a definition I would supply

chaser dragoon 1:20 am
i'm agnostic as well at least
just seeing it as what do we know

chaser dragoon 1:21 am
all we know today are stories of the past that could have been exchanged so many times they naturally could have and did change for the fantastical

Ferenheit 1:22 am
there is too much stuff religions turn a blind eye too... too many FACTS of life they ignore because it contradicts their teachings. Its like purposeful ignorance
I am not above the spiritual or those who believe in any religion, but calling things like science and physics a lie because its inconvenient is... a bit much

chaser dragoon 1:24 am
sorry
i had to pee
and
i agree with that
completely

Ferenheit 1:24 am
it happens lol

chaser dragoon 1:24 am
essentially, that's how i think
except i live in the south so it hurts to see people with such adamant beliefs

Ferenheit 1:25 am
yeah its pretty strong the further south you go

chaser dragoon 1:26 am
and it sucks because i'm in a rather liberal area
counties and whatnot
but not as liberal as i can only hope you're in
but i don't know how texas is
stereotypes say you're stubborn and proud

Ferenheit 1:28 am
if you are catholic/christian you generally dont discuss your views unless you want a torrent of stupidity and blind faith to hit you
if yo arent
catholic or christian

chaser dragoon 1:29 am
but i'm 150% ignorant to how daily life is beyond my southern life
and how life is in a more liberal state
i'm just, once again unaware as to how texas is in comparison to south carolina
just like i don't understand how life is outside of the united states
i need to experience something firsthand to judge it and understand it
and i've only ever known this life

Ferenheit 1:31 am
could always plan in like 2 years to definately take a trip to another country. Could change your life forever

chaser dragoon 1:31 am
yes
my girlfriend and i wanted to perhaps make a europe trip by next year

Ferenheit 1:32 am
See, that sounds exceptionally nice

chaser dragoon 1:32 am
i agree
can't be 100% on whether it
it's going to happen or not
but one can just hope

Ferenheit 1:33 am
Excactly. Hope and plan

chaser dragoon 1:33 am
the world has slowly taken a turn for the worse though

Ferenheit 1:33 am
and if something should change, adjust but dont give it up

chaser dragoon 1:33 am
and that's what i fear most
we've forgotten pride
we've lost touch with nature
to those with power, money is the most important thing
we've lost sympathy and compassion
and it scares me

Ferenheit 1:35 am
I fear science fiction will remain just that... I don't think we can ban together as a species in time to make it into space before the planet can no longer sustain us and our ways

chaser dragoon 1:35 am
exactly
space shows on television

chaser dragoon 1:35 am
movies in that same regard
have but disappeared

Ferenheit 1:35 am
yeah ._.

chaser dragoon 1:35 am
we've realized
as a species
we'll never make it that far
thus
discontinued fantacsing(sp lol) about something that will never be

Ferenheit 1:36 am
It will never be earthlings or humans. It will likely always be race and nation that describes us
I do miss the optimism though

chaser dragoon 1:37 am
i miss it too

Ferenheit 1:37 am
it let you suspend belief long enough to have hope

chaser dragoon 1:37 am
yes
gave you faith

chaser dragoon 1:37 am
in the future, in your kin

Ferenheit 1:37 am
that they would never know this world as it is now ._.

chaser dragoon 1:38 am
yes
and i fear
we will only allow it
to become worse
blaming it on our lack of power to change things

Ferenheit 1:38 am
again, if history is to be believed, yeah, we most certainly will

chaser dragoon 1:38 am
we wont band together with everyone because we've been taught
that we're so different
whether it be due to race, sex, sexual orientation, religion
or personal beliefs
intelligence
we're so different
though
we're all truly the same

chaser dragoon 1:39 am
on a basic level
we're all human beings

Ferenheit 1:39 am
Its interesting we divide our selves into race we in fact we are one species

chaser dragoon 1:40 am
of course
but
well
there really is no reason
for racial identification
because we are truly all human beings
race should not be an issue
in fact
the fact that we have to provide race information anywhere
is indeed racist

Ferenheit 1:41 am
arent we called the human race sometimes? Its ridiculous what we do to ourselves

chaser dragoon 1:41 am
yes
because what importance, truly
does race have

Ferenheit 1:41 am
besides being able to categorize you neatly somewhere in a file? Nothing
Unfortunately I must sleep now. My eye lids grow heavy and I have a early morning tomorrow. I bid you farewell and sleep well my friend.

chaser dragoon 1:42 am
other than clinging to an old-fashioned racially divided view that we say upon questioning that we've forgotten about
okay man
was good talking to you

Ferenheit 1:42 am
Enjoy the rest of your evening~

chaser dragoon 1:42 am
we can pull off some good conversations
i shall
good night sir

Ferenheit 1:42 am
Farewell

Southern Oaked

2011-01-19T15:57:00.003-05:00

Southern Oaks in New Riverside Bluffton is a fairly new community.
Thus far, there are about 60 families living here.

I am an inhabitant of Southern Oaks, and have been for a little over a year.

I bought my house new and ran into nothing but problems with it. Faulty appliances and piping, poor insulation which causes my pipes to freeze when it's cold and a leaky window right in front of the house.
Buried (or rather covered) by dirt right next to the garage were pieces of wood simply discarded; that is, wood with rusty nails lodged through them.

The HOA fees aren't awful but you get what you pay for. You'll get a dingy pool that's still in the process of being built that's 1/5th the size of pools in every other new neighborhood close by. You'll get promises of a fitness center planned to be done by Summer, until they scrap that idea so really you have no clue when the fitness center is coming.

When I let them know the abundance of problems I had with the house, each time they happened I was essentially told I was on my own and that I should hire someone to fix them, that their faulty building was no longer their problem.

It honestly seems like the people who built my house were drunk and had about as much experience with carpentry as I do (none).

This is a public service announcement: Don't even consider Southern Oaks if you're looking for a new home.

Hmm

2011-01-16T20:15:00.002-05:00

I don't understand why it's cool to hate the Patriots, but if you're not a Steelers fan you're a blasphemer.

It shows that fuck the south and it's full of motherfuckers who just jump on bandwagons and since it's cool love certain teams and to hate others, they do such.

Fuck the Steelers. Fuck Pittsburgh, and fuck that shitty gov/econ teacher from high school who loved the Steelers because he doesn't understand how the fuck life works and that you don't verbally attack students at any time over a fucking lame sports team.

Quote

2011-01-14T09:56:00.002-05:00

Conservatism is the enemy of progress, equality, fairness, and civility. Conservatives have been on the wrong side of every social movement since the inception of this country. They triumph a system that de-educates children and fills their heads with nonsense. They triumph a system that oppresses minorities and women. They yearn for and espouse fascism without even realizing it. Conservatism is corruption, hypocrisy, oppression, fearmongering, and bigotry.

Down with conservatism.
Credit to Bobbiethejean, who posted the above truth on a Young Turks video regarding segregation of a North Carolina school district.

Lost for Words

2011-01-13T13:32:00.003-05:00

I was spending my time in the doldrums
I was caught in the cauldron of hate
I felt persecuted and paralyzed
I thought that everything else would just wait
While you are wasting your time on your enemies
Engulfed in a fever of spite
Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades
Like shadows into the night

To martyr yourself to caution
Is not going to help at all
Because there'll be no safety in numbers
When the Right One walks out of the door

Can you see your days blighted by darkness?
Is it true you beat your fists on the floor?
Stuck in a world of isolation
While the ivy grows over the door

So I open my door to my enemies
And I ask could we wipe the slate clean
But they tell me to please go fuck myself
You know you just can't win

<3pinkfloyd

A double post?

2011-01-09T16:13:00.003-05:00

It's been a good day. Aside from the fact that I'm hungry.

Before I brought Keri to work, we watched the videos I posted in the entry previous this one and had a good, long conversation about 2012 and life in general.

I had a revelation afterwards how thankful I am for her companionship. She's a great girl and our similar mindset is something I'd been looking for since I grew interested in the opposite sex.
She likes that I have a level head on my shoulders and it's good neither of us are greedy; we're both happy with what we have and while we'll welcome more if it comes, neither of us intend to step on heads to get it which, unfortunately is Success in America 101.

We spoke for several hours about 2012 and life in general, and it makes me happy to know that we agree about the possibilities of what's been prophesized.
We were in concurrence that her and I both were economic slaves, and that she's working just to make someone else's wallet bigger; that in order to flourish we must escape an inherently evil system.

It's nice to have found someone.
Someone who's on point like so very few are; someone who isn't distracted by the media filling us to the brim with pro-American propaganda.

The Mayan prediction is interesting and things like facts back it. It's beyond understanding for some perhaps, and I expect them to blow it off as another doomsday prophecy but I personally have no intention to.
I can't say with utter certainty that the world will end but I think that humanity will be seriously affected.
The smartest thing to do is be ready for it.

Four times before this has happened, it's always ended in destruction and I can only profess my utter excitement.

Things are going to get interesting and no one has any control.

With luck, the right people will be erased from existence and life can start anew. Purpose will be realized and maybe we can finally live peacefully.

Until then, my life kicks ass.
I'm sure if I keep it beyond 2012, it will continue to.

Just a quick bit, it's been a minute since I've smoked pot.
I wish they would just legalize it already: it's a plant that grows naturally from the ground.
And if you just happen to set it on fire, there are some effects.
Plus there are really no long term effects in comparison with alcohol, which I've lost all taste for.

Here's to hoping 2012 destroys the America we know today and we can impliment a better system.
But no greedy people.
Greed is a sin I think. So let's change. For the better. Let's live in a place where everyone can flourish, not just the cooperations that are running the country.

Still a ways away but *crosses fingers*

More fun

2011-01-08T16:49:00.004-05:00

I'm not so much one to latch on to scare tactics used to frighten us regarding the end of times, but things are dying.
Granted it's definitive that the bees perishing at least are due to pesticides but the birds?

This is really very interesting to me. Things are dying. Falling from the sky, washing upon the shore.
What's next?

Maybe things are changing: the ecosystem and whatnot. Perhaps due to humanity's substantial impact on the environment but perhaps due to 2012 upcoming.

Final video addition this blog:

Part I

Part II

Part III

Interesting things to watch.
Interesting things to think about, especially with so much arbitrary death worldwide.
Perhaps a sign of things to come, but perhaps not.

Greed is evil; capitalism encourages it and it goes against Christian values.

Just a video

2011-01-05T18:12:00.002-05:00

Yay fascism.

Sic semper tyrannis

Seriously

2011-01-04T14:53:00.006-05:00

So, I'm at my parents house and since I don't receive the Bluffton Today at my own house I often enjoy reading the Vox at theirs.

I am outraged.

People are so misguided and so ignorant that it's disgusting.

Ignorant Vox #1:
I cannot help but wonder if it were Christians who threw a bomb and killed 21 Muslims, what would President Obama's reaction have been? Would it have been nothing more than to say the Christians had misguided visions? Me thinks not. I think he would have been outraged.

Response: Fact: religion is NOT important. Death is death, regardless of the misguided faith you carried throughout your life. If you don't like Obama, stick to facts without implying he's Muslim because he's not.

Ignorant Vox #2
So, we had some ice about a week ago, a little bit, for a few days, and as a precaution we went around and sprinkled sand on some of the steps on some of the units so people wouldn't slip and hurt themselves. We had one lady break her leg this week, so we were just trying to look out.

Sounds good and noble thus far, right?

And one guy, one guy from the all-powerful state of Wisconsin had to complain, 'I'm a northerner, I'm used to dealing with ice. I don't need anyone putting sand on my steps.' And as soon as we put it down, he came right out with his broom and swept it off. So, last night, I went back there and urinated on his porch. Happy New Year!

Response: Fucking asshole. Way to take a good deed and turn it on it's ass effectively doing a bad thing. He said he didn't want a mess on his porch and that he was used to dealing with ice. Even if he slipped and fell, it'd have been his ass and his problem. Your feelings got hurt so you decided to be an asshole. I hope you slip into traffic.

Ignorant Vox #3
I'm sorry to say, but if Mr. Olivera and his family weren't here in the first place illegally, then they wouldn't have had a death in the family. I am very upset with the Bluffton Today making such a big deal of this and making this other man look bad without putting the facts and the truth in the paper first of all.

Response: I heard he was a legal citizen. Racial profiling is awesome though. Why is everyone so obsessed with legality as far as citizenship goes?
People are people, regardless of their country of origin. Is the South so racist that they can't bear to place blame on a white American man for killing a Honduran man? Are people so easily led that they arbitrarily hate anyone who shares a different skin color than they do? Seriously, people being so racist, misguided and blissfully ignorant is sad.

Ignorant vox #4 It's a fact, if you don't speak English, you are an illegal alien. And now USCB is offering English language classes to people who are illegal in South Carolina when you cannot get into our colleges. What is going on here?

Response: No, it's not a fact that if you don't speak English you're illegal. Stop with the fucking generalization. And why is it bad to try and integrate those who do not speak English into our society by teaching it to them?
Set yourself on fire, please.

Don't fret precious, I'm here

2011-01-03T00:50:00.004-05:00

Hey, blog.

There are times I want to avoid getting too personal with you.
Generally I've saved personal thoughts for my head and just that. Lately, anyway.

Talking more about situations nationally (and as such globally) that generally affect us all.

Stressful enough..

But as I sip on this soda she got for me, I can't help but think about my own life, and about she, her, Miss Keri.

That is to say my girlfriend.

Up until just recently our relationship was fucking perfect. Nothing could be better and I was positive I'd found the one.
Like Neo and shit.

But then girl troubles arise as they often do.

Don't get me wrong: I am very much in love with this girl and the memories we've created thus far will be with me forever, undoubtedly.
But recently, like I said things have gone slightly awry.

I continue, again and again to be shoved out of situations. She'll be pink as a peach one minute, professing her love for me and hugging on me and I her and the next in our room, giving me short and simple 'get the fuck away from me' answers.

And I just don't get it.

I try to be nothing but nice, nothing but loving and nothing but understanding and I keep going back unwelcome into her problems or her situations.

It's frustrating, maddening; it drives me crazy.

And I go to you, blog because I am unable to deduce as to what I'm supposed to do next. The last thing I want to lose is her but I can do naught but fear the worst.

Like I said, we're very typically an amazing couple. Fucking incredible and the last thing I want is to not be that incredible couple.

So, my intangible blog friend, what's going to happen next?
Can this be changed for the better?

go back to sleep♪

intolerance

2010-12-27T12:03:00.007-05:00

I have a few outspoken conservative friends on Facebook, mostly to keep myself entertained and... well I suppose that's it.

Intolerance, ignorance; generally these people are easily led.

An example; one which outraged me is the status of perhaps the most outspoken conservative I believe I've ever met in person.
It reads:

I'm tolerant of everything save intolerance. Hypocritical, yes but what can I say?

It's blatant racism, it's blatant intolerance and it's blatantly simple-minded.

"Damn liberals"
Word. Damn people who think differently than you do.
I see damn liberals as "damn tolerance & free thinking" anyhow.

"Damn Muslims"
Why?
I mean if you say damn Muslims, then damn Christians. Damn organized religion because Christians (oft conservative) don't act on logic.
Though I suppose it's safe to say that America began a land of tolerance and freedom it has turned into a land of intolerance and economic slavery.

"Damn Atheists"
I just don't see why. Organized religion, generally is an easy form of control; way too much in government. I mean, seriously we elected Bush twice and he was telling us how he talks to god and motherfucker gives him advice on how he should go to Iraq and control the oil.
Or how 'bout Sarah Palin, who said that she expects to meet Jesus before she dies, which implies to me that she wants to stay in the Middle East, seeing as how the world will come to an end in the Middle East, according to the Bible.

In short, I don't want to be lead by someone who talks to intangible storybook characters.

"Etc..."
I can assume this is "people I disapprove of" which could be folks of any other race, creed and lifestyle different than his (and it likely is).

Is this the right wing entirely? Bigots who care only for themselves and their well-being?

I mean, word, but time is moving faster than you are. It's about time to accept the changes and adjust accordingly because as a race if our thinking does not evolve then it retards our progress as a whole.

On top of that, the ACLU is the American Civil Liberties Union, an organization who fights for civil liberties, but apparently that woman is against civil liberties for anyone with a different skin color than her.

Things need to change, man.

Glenn Beck is funny

2010-12-19T15:27:00.002-05:00

Silly Glenn Beck, we've been a fascist country for a long time.

Dissent

2010-12-18T10:38:00.003-05:00

Please, before it's too late.
We're complacent with our technology but if you care anything about humanity; if you want more than a world run by a fascist government caring not for your own well-being but instead with money and power, where they'll go so far as to kill citizens of their country as a chip to get them closer to war not with a country but with a concept.

It's time for change. This system of government isn't working.

Absolute power is absolute and power corrupts, greed is prevalent in our society.

That is their primary means of prosperity: keep us asleep, keep us greedy, keep us numb

New Thinking

2010-12-17T03:08:00.002-05:00

Hey there.
So, I was thinking.

I was thinking of how much I've changed in the past few years.
I suppose it's to be expected, but more than my friends or my hobbies my lifestyle has changed substantially.

In 2006 I was more than ready to sign my life over to the United States government for residence, a job and steady income, the only downside being that I'd turn into fodder for Bush's fool's errand to 2010 where I distrust the government so much that I want to withdraw all my money from the bank so as to avoid the inevitable collapse upcoming.

Just a thought.

People are afraid of me

2010-12-12T18:01:00.002-05:00

And I love it.

So I just went out for a quick walk (~1 mile) and along the walk two people walked past me; middle-aged folks with their two dogs.

As I walked passed them, I removed my headphones and greeted them with a smile.

They greeted me, urgently and sped up in the direction opposite me.

I continued walking, music blaring and eventually decided to return home.

So I turned around and walked onwards.

Before I go on, this is what I look like:

Well, I ran into the couple again. Sort of.

Before they passed me though, they both veered off to their right and took the (mostly non-existent) dirt path obviously in attempts to avoid me, the pink haired man with snake bites.

I jokingly told my dad just the other day as we were walking out of Five Guys that I hope the parents inside look to their children and tell them never to turn out like me.

Benign complacency

2010-12-05T17:46:00.009-05:00

Get schooled, get married, get it on.
Start a family. Hurry, move along.
You might start to think, make a different move.
Lose your only mind that you've never used anyway.
Walk on the white line. Brainwashed.
Walk on the same side. Brain dead.
It's secure and safe like you need it all to be.

Our instincts are being re-routed,

We are existing in an artificially created state of being,

The lower classes and the poor are growing,

Civil rights and racial equality are non-existent,

They have created an oppressive nation and culture,

And we have been none the wiser,

That is their primary means of prosperity: keep us asleep, keep us greedy, keep us numb

Set Your Goals is pretty awesome.

Growl

2010-12-04T20:34:00.004-05:00

So,

I've been dating Keri for a few months now.

We've been incredibly happy together. ~~Nearly~~ every day has been a joy.

Not long after our relationship began, she introduced me to her best friend Sebrina, whom she refers to as being her "sister" so the impact this girl has had on her life has been pretty serious. I mean, they grew up together.

And she was a nice person. A little unmotivated but who isn't? Shit, I am.

I was also introduced to a fifteen year old girl she also grew up with, who Keri knew I wouldn't much enjoy being around, especially after being told she gave her virginity for three cigarettes, but nonetheless I was.

Every other word out of her mouth was an obscenity, as if she just learned the words yesterday.

And she's pregnant.

I stressed, in private, that a party girl who seems to strive to go no farther in life but to stay at fifteen forever has no place bringing a child into the world when she is but a child herself.

Since the back-story has been set, and trust me it's back-story and nothing more. I met this girl once and she was gone from my mind shortly thereafter. I don't give a flying fuck about her. I've never known her nor do I ever plan to. Part of me feels sorry that this is literally all she'll probably get out of life.

Keri remarked on her Facebook status, asking her why every other word that comes out of her mouth is an obscenity. She told her it's unbecoming and it makes her sound like an idiot; that there is a time and a place for everything.

AND HERE'S WHERE THE TROUBLE COMES IN:

Well, I couldn't have said it better myself, and Sebrina seemed to agree.

She messaged me, saying that I should tell me girlfriend to "shut the fuck up".

This incited an argument, with her bringing about such statements as Keri being unhappy with me (which was news to both her and I).

I went outside to have a calming cigarette and brood over the entire situation.

Keri called me, basically saying that everything she had to say was completely unfounded.

So, problem solved.

I'm still very angry and I'm not sure where I'm to be standing this time.

Since it seems the best choice, I'll stand alongside my best friend: my girlfriend.

And I'm done. I needed to vent that pretty fucking bad.

*Update*

Later learned it was pretty obvious they were all just pulling a pity card, since brought up on more than one occasion was my "flaunting" (it's in quotations because it's not true) the fact that I'm more intelligent than their lot and I have more money. Oh, and that this rubbed off on Keri. Like I (and the late George Carlin) said, it's all bullshit and it's bad for ya.

The only thing I can suggest is instead of looking for fucking pity try next time to learn how to make your own paper and there are plenty of books around if you ever sit down and try and fucking read.

(Pro hint: reading makes you smarter)

1984

2010-11-22T00:25:00.007-05:00

An uncompromising vision of the future

A nation at war

Where terrorism is exploited by the state

Where media is controlled

So, recently Microsoft released it's "Kinect" peripheral

Kinect is Microsoft's attempt at competing with the Nintendo Wii as far as motion gaming goes.

Except Kinect comes equipped with a camera that recognizes who is using it and in the room via facial recognition technology.

A total surveillance society

Microsoft is an American company.

Given that it's Microsoft, it wouldn't be hard to believe that this technology would (and will) be used to spy upon American homes and be used largely by the government for more than just the census.

Personally, I wouldn't feel safe being anywhere near such a peripheral.
Big Brother is doing a pretty good job in attempts to fill my head with the lies that the American media already tries hard to shove into my mind.
Propaganda is just that and I want no part of it.
My privacy shall not be invaded.
Does it not scare you, the way the world is going?
This is a country that needs desperately to fall. Our money is being shuffled around by banks and is taken from us daily by people in positions of inscrutable power who suffer from
such greed and they turn around and speak ill of to their pastors.
I could have sworn avarice was a sin.
Awful hypocrites who do naught but try and control us to do their bidding.

And every citizen is property of the state

[ HONEST HEARTS ]

2010-10-19T19:35:00.003-04:00

This is not about the new Vanna EP The Honest Hearts.

Not completely as much as a side character in my story.

But regardless, she's quite amazing. Literally everything I was looking for in another person.
Everything.

Life is funny in that regard and through her I've learned something important about people.
Like every quality, it all seems too good to be true.

And haters hate that.

I recall getting harassed via anonymous question on MyYearbook only recently about use of the 'L' [love] word which was being used due to our feeling it.
The fact that no one compares to this girl.
The fact that every girl I've dated and even "fell for" irl before her were just complete sluts, dumb bitches etc.

The fact that she's totally awesome.

And haters hate that. They hate to see other people happy because they're not, so why should anyone else be?

It's funny though; I find humor in such harassment.
Wish it didn't stop.

All it shows me is that Keri and I have something that everyone else wants and given their powerlessness they can do naught but attempt, fruitlessly, to rob us of it.

Oh well.
Big giant *tee hee* to him.

Anyway, the Honest Hearts EP is pretty much amazing too.
The five song soundtrack to my life at the moment.
Even though haters hate that too, including someone who was a really good friend of mine like "oh it's generic" which kind of got me off balance when I first heard that from him since I'd always held his opinion up pretty highly.

Since I listened to it a few times, told him about it and got that so I listened to it more trying my best to like it less to no avail.

It's definitely different. New vocalists change things since I'd only ever known Vanna as they were with their previous vocalist.

It's good though.
Haters trying to hate on me, Keri AND Vanna.
But we're gonna fight through that shit.

Joe Pesci

2010-10-05T19:06:00.003-04:00

First off,
What the fuck?

Is this just something the media pulls over our eyes to distract us from the real issues? Seriously, religion is fucking mindless and the best faith is to have none at all if you're in a position of such power that essentially you're leader of the free world.

Do people have to nitpick about literally the smallest issues? Just because one doesn't like someone because of his views, his race, gender, whatever it's no reason to bring a man's faith into the situation.
Personally, who the fuck cares what his religion is?
In the words of the late George Carlin,

"When it comes to bullshit, big time major league bullshit you have to stand in awe of the all time champion of false promises and exaggerated claims: religion. No contest.
Religion easily has the greatest bullshit story every told. Think about it.
Religion has actually convinced people that there's an invisible man living in the sky who watches everything you do every minute of every day.
And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do.
And if you do any of these ten things he has a special place full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever til the end of time.

But he loves you.

He loves you and he needs money. He always needs money.
He's all powerful, all-perfect, all-knowing and all-wise somehow, just can't handle money.

Religion takes in billions of dollars, they pay no taxes, and they always need a little more.

You talk about a good bullshit story, holy shit."

But I guess drones need something to follow. I just wish America would drop religion altogether. Such a waste of time and it's all bullshit.
But it's working. We're a divided people because of all these things they're trying to bring up on the news. Let's just exploit our differences.

Random fact

2010-10-05T17:32:00.001-04:00

I have the Jurassic Park theme song stuck in my head.

Dun dun dun dun DUN dun dun dun dun dun dun
Dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dunnnnn dun dun dunn dunn

Look, kids. I'm sober!

2010-09-22T17:02:00.003-04:00

A sad story, to be sure.

Material possession = nothing = fact.
Yes?

Why do people make such a big deal over things they "own" just because they're within what's at least their peripheral vision?

Truth is, you own nothing.
Besides that, what gives you the right to claim ownership of anything? Because you "paid" for it? Not like money is hard to come by; one can acquire such just by sitting behind a desk for eight hours. Hurray.

The only thing you can call your own is what's in your head. Knowledge is the only thing no one can take away from you.
That and being materialistic is fail.

But, whatever. Just random thoughts that flew through my head I figured deserved a blog.

Also, I wish more people in this world played Magic: The Gathering. Or that the South wasn't complete shit. One or the other. lulz

Figured it out

2010-09-21T21:11:00.003-04:00

For general reference, so I don't forget tomorrow or later,

What I need is an Australian Shepherd puppy.
Man's best friend for real.
I wish I could signify to myself for when I read this later the magnitude of importance I feel that this will solve literally every problem I've had for the past three years.

K now I'm hungry.

Random text messages sent...

2010-09-14T22:29:00.002-04:00

By me!

You know that pkwy is used regularly by all races religions and creeds. People from all walks of life will one day make use of that parkway.

That's a permanent scar cleaved within our fine planet.

I mean what happens after we die right? This planet shall continue its life and perhaps spawn a new species.

As it sees fit.

Eventually we're going to exhaust the planet enough that it needs to muster its defenses against us.

Creating disease or anything that'll not adhere to our rampant breeding but in fact do something to counteract it.

[rant much?]

Not as much a rant as a humble, realist observation.

[right on]

Hungry

2010-09-12T09:26:00.003-04:00

It's just the end of the day.
Or rather, the beginning of a new one.
Though yesterday hasn't totally ended with me, and bong at my side I stay awake for no real meaning. I'd say I'm looking for purpose but I'm not.

I need purpose.

So, purposeless I sit and blog a useless blog to submit for no real reason while everyone around me is passed out.

And that's word.

Every year November September gets closer

2010-09-02T16:27:00.002-04:00

I'm so happy. I finally found my Eeveelutions team.

Time to get started on raising them all I guess. Good thing I have Leafeon leveled well and Umbreon/Espeon are right behind them.
I have a Glaceon but I suppose I'll have to get a Vaporeon from nothing.
Well from an Eevee.
And a water stone.

Leafeon
Hidden Power (Rock type)
Synthesis
X-Scissor
Leaf Blade

Vaporeon
Hidden Power (Ground type)
Surf
Ice Beam
Hydro Pump

Flareon
Hidden Power (Grass type)
Sunny Day
Flamethrower
Fire Blast

Jolteon
Hidden Power (Water type)
Thunderbolt
Thunder
Rain Dance

Espeon
Hidden Power (Fighting type)
Psychic
Shadow Ball
Morning Sun

Umbreon
Hidden Power (Flying type)
Confuse Ray
Faint Attack
Moonlight

Umbreon

2010-09-02T02:40:00.004-04:00

Anyone who sees life as anything less than pure entertainment is missing the point.

George Carlin 1937-2008

Time to start taking advantage yo

2010-08-18T02:41:00.004-04:00

I just had a life transformation regarding life and living it and it all started when I was driving my friend's car.

I realized that I was such a downer before, like oh lo and behold life sucks and the etc but I realized I was just not thinking of the benefit regarding my ~~decent~~ good living situation and that life is only as good as I make it. A sculptor of one's own proverbial sand castle, so to speak.

So I dig it.

Consensus

2010-07-01T15:00:00.002-04:00

[x] Bowflex
[ ] Good shape/muscular
[ ] Confidence
[x] Meeting for job
[ ] Job
[ ] Money
[x] Drive to re-enroll into school
[ ] Location of a school that is North of here
[ ] Productive hobby
[ ] Group in which said hobby is performed as a way to meet people with like interests
[ ] Get the fuck out of the South

I suppose the stage is set, so to speak.
Time to see if I can't fix things.

Since life seems to be a series of awful events made light by a few good ones here and there.

Example being my life prior to my car accident was amazing. I had a great girlfriend and a group of amazing friends who I absolutely loved to party with.
I had a contract for the military in which I was to continue my life and "grow up" so to speak.

A near-death experience and I lose everything.

Briefly I gain friends who becoming horrendously cynical over time and are no longer fun to hang out with.

Alone again after my GF breaks up with me (twice; two different girls) and I'm absolutely lost.

There's got to be something to make this life better; to make it not be so unbearably awful.

Damn Dude

2010-07-01T04:15:00.003-04:00

This sucks.
I need to meet people.

It bothers me how someone can go from feeling one way to feeling another so quickly...
i'll love you forever. i promise.

te quiro...

Serious shit

2010-06-25T21:42:00.004-04:00

I bought weed today, and essentially every week for the past few weeks.
I took a couple hits and tried to dissect why.

I bought the weed with my old roommate who is only my old roommate since the word responsibility seemed not ring too strongly in his ear.

He'll be looking soon for a new place to live and asked me if $100 and help with food per month would warrant me approving returning his residence.

At first, my response was negative since I knew how he was and that help with food in his eyes meant the occasional pizza and chicken noddle soup from the dollar store.

He's either an amazing con-artist or he's actually changed and my heart hopes for the latter.

Regardless, when asked (by the parents) about him and the money he was bringing me the question was posed as to whether or not he was trying to move back in with me. Since I'm not a liar, I confirmed that he was interested and told them his terms.

Immediately the yelling began.
I'm too trusting, too nice, too forgiving and the whole lot.

My father called after my mother hung up on me and was a lot more calm, still saying I will "take it in the shorts"; essentially duped into trusting him only to have to deal with law enforcement again.
The conversation ended there since I've always the experience with them that my word means nothing.
And to them such is true. I've not the life experience to contend with theirs and as such my word, my opinion is useless.

Which brings me back to the very first sentence in this blog: weed.

I think a part of my buying it (and/or alcohol) is a way to escape them and people in general. I don't drink or smoke more often than once a week but on the same token it feels good in my off-time to escape society and to a point life in general.

I mean, and oftentimes it's a bit of fun.

Magic = lost™

2010-06-24T06:11:00.004-04:00

The magic is gone.

The magic I speak of is in life.

Religion has been debunked completely.
Cheaters win everything; power is corrupt.
War is commonplace and people care not enough for the lives lost to rise up against their government, to see through their ploy, through their atrocities to do anything about it.
Many stand behind their governments as they ignorantly bend over for those seats of power and allow them to listlessly ignore them, adding their numbers against their competition and being thankful their numbers are greater than their adversary while they send them to die simply for a larger bank account.

The good die young.
Nice guys finish last.
Nothing accounts to good men; nothing is gained aside from the feeling that one has done the right thing.

Does life have a purpose?
Are we really all so special or naught but a parasite to our planet?

What's beyond Earth?
What's the bigger picture?

As a race, are we destined just to kill ourselves or deplete our resources and die as a result?
Will we ever explore beyond our galaxy?

Questions to ponder... things to think about...!

Is there anybody out there?
Is anybody calling?
double-update!

The End of Self-loathing

2010-06-24T04:34:00.004-04:00

It's sort of a turning point.

I've gone almost three years absolutely fucking hating myself and everything about me.
But that's over now. I'm through that time.
Things were said, things happened and I'm in a new place now; a different place.
And I'm good with that.

Everything is starting to pick up and I think it's a good thing. I am very happy with my new look and the things I've learned in the three-year span.

Now, if we could continue on uninterrupted,
I'd appreciate it^^;

Alone

2010-05-16T03:42:00.002-04:00

It's almost embarrassing.

4:00 AM.

I just want to be past this.

Not a Writing Assignment

2010-05-09T01:57:00.005-04:00

Hello again.
Updating this frequently again but things have been happening frequently again.

BUT FIRST!

To explain my situation (mostly to 'Mad Hatter') in November of 2006 (the 16th, to be exact) I was in a wicked car accident that essentially almost killed me. I was unable to walk for several months following my awakening and as a result I've grown to appreciate everything life has to offer. From having my family and friends told that I'd likely be a lifeless vegetable to where I am now, I believe I am just one of many miracles life has to offer (not in an arrogant way, you know what I mean).

And now:

Tonight was interesting.
My friends _____ and ______ came down to pick up a couple balls for beer pong that was going to be played at my friend ____'s this evening, but they came with interesting news.
Apparently, my ex-roommate (and as a result, ex-friend) was incredibly angry with my father and I for kicking him out of my house due to his non-payment in any regard as far as bills were concerned.

But HE told THEM that he paid bills while I sat on my ass all day and smoked marijuana.

While the latter is at least partially true, the former is absolutely false. If I got on my hands and knees I couldn't so much as beg him to help with the bills because he never had any money.

But...but he has a job. Why no money, you ask?

Well it's difficult for an irresponsible twenty-five year old ~~man~~ boy from Pennsylvania to so much as take responsibility for anything, seeing as how the day he received his check from Best Buy he'd go out and spend it in bars and on green ultimately in attempts at getting laid.
I never expected someone to be any less responsible than I, but there you have it.

He was filling their heads with these fabrications that he's so great, that he paid the bills while I sat on my (now getting fat) ass and smoked weed all day.

My best friend Casey came down to hang out tonight and conveyed to me that he always seemed too full of himself. And he is, I agreed.

So when I called him out via text message, he called me and expressed to me that I was talking big on the phone, and remarked that I should co,me to him.

"What," I asked, "So you can beat the shit out of me?"

"Yep" was his only response.

The last resort of a man with nowhere else to go: violence.

You see, my accident bestowed upon me a wonderful head injury and as such, getting a nice hit in the head would very likely cause me to lose my life.

Disgusted and a bit fearful, I called the police.

Telling him this, he gave me a very deviant, "I hope you have a good night" and "I don't remember threatening you at all"

DUN DUN DUN

The police arrived and it went as I'd expected. He got off the hook though especially after speaking with my father the officer told me even he thought that Delpero was full of shit.

I cheered a bit inside, since apparently officers are trained with a bullshit detector or maybe it's just surgically built in.

Personally, and if you ask me I really just want people like him to be erased from the planet, more specifically since he slighted me so I truly hope he goes back to Pennsylvania (where he obviously belongs since he brings it up three times every five minutes) and dies in a car fire.
You never know, if he keeps trying to get pussy and NOT change his oil like he needs to, maybe my wishes will come true!

I feel kind of bad, wishing someone else discontinue their life but he's nothing to give to anyone and as such nothing good would ever come with his continued existence.

It's too bad I don't believe I have the right to take a life, what with the morality of it (or lack thereof) and the repercussions that are the law and whatnot...

I suppose though his word is rarely truth, he's still got a silver tongue and his new job working at Honda as a car salesman will likely go great for him.

And still, for some reason I can think of no word better to describe him and this situation as "cute". Not like the cute like cute boy thing but like a cuddly little teddy bear. And honestly, I think that's all he needs. That, a reality check and the realization that he's not king of the world. Sorry man, you're not Leonardo DiCaprio.

"You know this Civic? Yeah, with a few after market parts and it'll beat the Lamborghini in the quarter mile. I've seen it!"

an overlook

2010-05-05T17:41:00.003-04:00

So,
Hello again.

Here's what I've got on my plate:

I feel so alone, and I think that's a large part of my lack of motivation to move forward.
It was difficult, going from 2006 to having a place to belong with my (at the time) girlfriend and a plethora of friends who'd have my back no matter what to losing all of that and essentially being on the never-ending search to find a new place, a new group of people who'd do the same for me that I'd do for them.

It's an issue for me since upon my coming home from the hospital, I felt a burden to my friends and whatnot. I felt as if they didn't want to be around me because I was, at the time, so different than I was before. Effectively, everyone I once knew was glad to throw me aside and continue with their lives and honestly, who can blame them? I suppose I just thought I was closer to them than I truly was.

I think that's part of the reason why I'm so trusting, so willing just to let anyone in my life and that's where the roommate situation kicks in.

One night playing beer pong my current roommate lamented that he was being kicked out of his friend's house due to his bringing nothing into the house as far as money was concerned.
Drunk, I insisted that he stay with me if it's that big an issue and he responded with his desire to find a job and pay his way as much as possible.
So honestly, I didn't regret my drunken invitation to him the next day (when I was sober and hungover).

He left, returned to Pennsylvania (which he has a habit of bringing up "I'm a twenty-five year old from Philadelphia" like everyone cares) and returned to my welcoming him excitedly, assuming he intended to keep true to his word in helping me pay the bills as any roommate should.
Think again, I suppose.

I'm in the hole over $300 at the beginning of May because of April's bills and his lack of desire to help me pay them. Good deal, right?

He goes out and spends money at bars on Hilton Head, meeting girls who he's interested in fucking and then laments to me later that he has no money to help pay the bills or buy any food.
So I rack up $300 in food and cheer because I assume it'll last me the entire month.
Wrong again. Kid can go through food like crazy, and by "kid" I mean twenty-five year old man from Philadelphia.

So plans are to get him the fuck out come Friday. He shouldn't have an issue because there are people who trust him and will take him in.
Truly maybe he just took advantage of me because he saw he could.

Being a nice guy kind of sucks, doesn't it?

so lets play pool or something

2010-04-30T14:53:00.002-04:00

Life is different than it was.
It changes on a rate as frequent as daily.

I was just in the other room, the "office" esque room that has proved a useless room thus far.
Though I stopped and looked at the US Army t-shirt and the trio of pictures all with signatures and things.

Looking at it, reading the signatures and notes reminded me life is never stagnant.
It never stops. You're always making progress towards something.

Right now, I am tentatively moving to Minnesota if it pleases me so.

Will that change tomorrow?

I'm no psychic so I cannot say.

One can only hope things work in a positive way. My favor, your favor, everyone's favor.

How interesting the simple things are.

poem

2010-04-27T22:07:00.000-04:00

the winding road

so many, or so few?

it winds and it winds upon mountainsides

caring nothing for the world nor it's judgement

Exciting addition

2010-04-23T15:47:00.002-04:00

So yesterday's blog pretty much started a transformation.
I was at the farmers' market yesterday and spoke with a man I'd job shadowed for at the Bluffton Today a few years prior.

He told me of groups that occasionally get together and do community service in cleaning up so the rivers remain as clean as we can make them.

I'm definitely down for stuff like that,
So,
I put my name and email on the list^^

I'd promote anyone and everyone who reads this to jump on the bandwagon and help out.
Living in a clean environment is better than not, right?

Peace.

2010-04-22T20:33:00.002-04:00

So.
My eyes are open.

I just watched a documentary of sorts about John Lennon and Yoko Ono, spoke with my roommate and it really opened my mind, convinced me to keep on keepin' on with college and further my education and knowledge of the world and everything.

All of it made perfect sense.

The black plague, the AIDs virus and cancer are just a way to control the population.
Why was polio and other diseases such an epidemic in the 40's and 50's and now it's not an issue?
It's common knowledge as well that the sexually transmitted AIDs virus was engineered by a scientist doing research for a vaccine to a virus in Africa. Why? To control the population.
In Red China they kill their babies if they're girls. Why? Population control.

Why don't we take care of our own people medically? Population control.

I was actually in Hilton Head Hospital the other day bringing a friend because she's an issue with her eye: she'll go blind in it without treatment. They did naught but treat her as if she was one big dollar bill.
Poorly treated and on top of that, medication is beyond expensive. For someone currently not on paid work-leave, expensive remedies are almost beyond her grasp and as such, what is she to do?
It angered me, but it made perfect sense. The rich are only out to get richer and the poor, unfortunately, are being weeded out to die.

We're distracted by political parties, sports, religion, commercials and television as a whole. We're educated to be ignorant, unaware of the current ills in the world. We're educated to profess the United States as being the greatest country in the world while we sit idly by and watch our own citizens die in the streets while we're supporting our troops in a war in another country.
We work 9-5 jobs every day to make salary for a company who is only tearing the world apart.

If a high-class executive wanted a house with a six car garage he'd have it tomorrow. You're telling me we can't find the cure for AIDs? For cancer?

With war, with poverty, disease and famine in the world...

All we are saying is give peace a chance.

Enemy helicopter approaching!

2010-04-13T22:24:00.002-04:00

So hi.
Hello internet.
Some of you will not hear me though not due to my not being audible to you.

And that's about all I have to say to you.
Hello.
Fascist internet.
My apologies for the insult, if one would consider one (I would).
I mean not to trouble you.

I think I'm going to a bar though.
Bye internet. It was nice talking to you (even briefly)

Crunchy lulz

2010-04-10T02:36:00.002-04:00

Alright.
Happy April, I s'pose.

And I'm beyond inebriated.
And everyone is asleep right now so I must instead do the...APRIL WRITING ASSIGNMENT! Oh snap. I like doing that though especially since I noticed that dude commented on my last blog and comments are ftw. srsly.

Anyway the Bill Maher show is on television.
He's talking to people.

I've been fed far too much democratic noise from The Young Turks and watching Bill Maher and everything that involved George Carlin...

But still, I am very (very) opposed to the idea of NOT taking care of our populous...
Ah, that's irrelevant.
MUST.CHANGE.SUBJECT
^lulz^

Back to business.

So,
I do believe,
I've...fallen in love,
With a girl,
From the far north,
Decades and decades,
Back in time!

So really though I can't wait to visit her in the great white north.

But anyway,
Like animal cruelty kind of sucks.

But holy shit.
Today I had fishsticks.
And I was thinking like oh snap I went backwards on my like not want to harm seafood.
Or dolphins. I think dolphins are pretty cool and shit.

Like okay,
So I'm pretty stoned.
I have no idea why I began writing it.
Do you know why?

._.;;question-everything

The truth of the matter is,
I am pretty much hungry.

Oh shit.
This was my blog jam thing.
Sorry, I completely forgot what I was doing...

But really let's run back to my views because I've a question at the end of it...
Like okay, I've voted democrat since I've first voted since that's how my parents always voted and I was down with having more government and fairer tax stuff and whatnot.
Or whatever,
I always voted democrat since it seemed fairer to the middle class in my eyes.
I've never had issue on abortion since a good part of me that doesn't care as much about people as I do about animals and whatnot (except the animals I consume[muahahaha]).
I was never raised religious and though was oft in the company of my nextdoor neighbor, who were raised on Christianity since early childhood.
So I went to my own fair share of bible-esque sort of things.
I mean, I was a child at the time and as such somewhat impressionable I bought a lot of the god stuff for a while but I'd done a fair amount of research and through learning there is no proof that there is a god and the age I learned the bible stories I saw them as just that: stories. And at the same time, the proof behind these stories are non-existent... I just don't buy something so much that cannot be proved.
And I'd not want to censor my own life because of man-made stories that were likely just that in their day: stories for children, not so much something that should be praised as much.
Stories to make sure people stay in line.
Nothing sits right with religion to me.

And this blog has lost my interest.

Grinds my gears

2010-04-03T17:02:00.002-04:00

You know what really grinds my gears? People who are talking on their cell phones in checkout lines. Yeah, it's not as if there is another human who requires you to communicate with him/her as you're buying your more than likely useless items.

Have people lost respect for folks working in stores to service them so much that they won't even give them the time of day, a kind word or, most of all, their attention?

I promise you, absolutely nothing is more important than real life, person to person communication. There is nothing so substantial that you must ignore the nice cashier to instead speak to someone miles upon miles away about things less important than being polite.

Faith: lost.

Destiny is dead

2010-03-19T00:35:00.003-04:00

The winds of time blow indiscriminately and unalterably in a single direction. Carried on those winds, inevitably, are the sands of change which can cause the bonds of friendship and love to strengthen, or they can seep through the cracks and cause those bonds to erode away. This truth is evident, of course.

But here is the question: Is it possible for a person to alter the wind, or at the very least choose how and where to spread the sand? A sculptor of his own proverbial sand castle, per se.

Perhaps it is possible. It is no rarity for one to say we are responsible for our own destiny, which would imply that we shape it. However, while this implication stands it can also be challenged.

Why do we allow good friendships to end in undesirable ways? Why do we allow them to end at all? What causes us to pass up on opportunities that, had we capitalized on would have greatly improved our lives or even perhaps the lives of others'?

To redirect or alter time is an impossibility, to be sure.
But to change one's destiny? Eh...

And hilarity ensues.

2010-02-18T22:05:00.005-05:00

I think it's funny that one would open his house to a homeless boy from NC at their ex-girlfriends request. I did that once and once I found out that he was only homeless because all he did all day was waste electricity, sit and text people from the town I picked him up from and he was far from interested in working. "It can't be done," he said sobbingly after putting in about four applications. Day labor exists. Temp job services are within reach, but he threw those aside to leech instead off of me and my other hard-working roommate. Upon his leaving (in which I was threatened with violence) and going back to homelessness or whatever he's doing, that same ex who I was a saint to before now says I'll never be happy and I'll never find someone because of how my behavior is in this scenario. Ironic, since I'm the happiest I've ever been and I've found someone better than her. The only positive thing about the ex in question is that she puts out at the drop of a dime.

Moral of the story is that I'm fucking done bending over backwards and being as nice as I was.
I've got a new world ahead of me and I can't have these people leeching off of me.
Honestly, with luck I'll be in Minnesota within the year and far from the south.
Far from the right-wing nutjobs and the bible thumping fucking idiots that I dislike oh-so-much.
I've been thrown to the wayside my entire life and I'm sick of it. It's time to man up and do things my way.
Fuck Taylor.
Fuck Tyler.
And basically fuck everyone who chooses not to give me the same respect I give them.

Quick update

2010-01-20T22:51:00.005-05:00

I need to start getting back into this. Tis an important thing, I do believe.

So, recently things happened in my life. Just tonight, in fact.
Katty and I broke up. Prematurely, it would seem and I'll stop at nothing to win back her affection, because I know she still feels for me similarly as I do her.

I've (apparently) acquired a roommate, who will be scooped up tomorrow.
And he seems cool, into similar (or the same) music as me and overall a pretty straight up guy.

Since loss of Katty, I've decided to find other hobbies (aside from video games since that's not exactly a constructive one).
I suppose I'll pick up my guitar again and attempt to become once again proficient.
I drove myself to the local music store and got priced a bass guitar as well, so I may begin learning there are 4 strings instead of six, and bass typically is easier to start on than guitar.

And I could have cancer, which is definitely positive.

Not much to say, just a minor update in the catalog that is my life.
Somewhat boring, sure. Somewhat exciting; to me, sure. Somewhat depressing; once again, to me, sure.

But things, in time, always get better as they always have.

I like Vanna

2010-01-15T14:11:00.003-05:00

The band. I wish more bands could be like them.
To put as much heart into their music as they do,
To respect the fans that got them there as much as they (or any band like them) do.

I like their music.
A lot.

I should learn to fly a plane, buy one, and go see them wherever they go.

And by season tickets for the Red Sox.
So I can fly there too.

This year looks like a good one.
2010.

The Red Sox and Vanna.
The best things come from Boston.

A Saturday update...?

2009-09-05T14:44:00.002-04:00

Haha.
So I've been moving for ages. Seemed like ages, anyway.
Finally got the majority of my things here, save my old bed for the spare room. But that may be tomorrow.
Hung up my Clerks 2, Dogma movie and Jay and Silent Bob posters as signed by Mr. Kevin Smith.
All that's left to do is bring my Celtics, Red Sox wall stuff and stick that perhaps in the spare room.
I've gotta get my Pink Floyd poster framed and stick it behind the couch and hang up the Boondock Saints poster as signed by Troy Duffy.
But everything is in order.

Speaking of the Boondock Saints and of Troy Duffy and of everything like that, the All Saints Day trailer came out and it looks amazing.
I suppose he needed not do much to please me since I very much enjoyed it's prequel which is why I bought oh-so-much from their website.

But the final weeks of moving follow! My wall mounted HDTV sees very many PS3 and 360 and Wii games played (and by Wii games I mean Smash Brothers but you understand).

How exciting.

Rehash

2009-08-03T10:31:00.000-04:00

So begins a new week I suppose.
Not much has changed since my last blog. Still beyond excited about buying my first house. Got the price on the Rooms to Go furniture and it all seems affordable.
And nice.

Other than the house I suppose there isn’t much to talk about. There is often very little on my mind.
I’ve found I’m constantly starving for company of any sort and that loss of about all contact with everyone for almost two years was pretty mind-blowingly terrible for me.

But it doesn’t bother me. Much.
Or rather I let it get to me too often.

What I do know, what I’m positive about is that I’ve experienced something that most people only go through once.
And in turn that’s changed me.
You’re really called to live in the moment. Life is too short.

Perhaps a copy/paste or even a mundane addition to last Friday’s blog but oh well. I had better ideas laying in bed last night but they all left me as I figured they would but insisted to myself that I’d remember come morning.

Her heart beats on, she’s just not giving up yet

Pub tables!

2009-07-31T17:44:00.002-04:00

Literacy.

I need some practice.
I think though, that my mind has not only been in a laze having been away from anything academic for so long now but also brain cells have been sacrificed to the alcohol and drug gods for fun, obviously; for shits and giggles.

Suppose it’s not important.
I’m sure that it will all come back to me in due time. Once my brain gets bathed again in the pool of academics I shall be back to my slightly lazy but always productive when it counts school-going self.

Sort of irrelevant to the main topic though, school.
Main topic of course is that a couple days ago I bought me a house.
It’s pretty far down at the circle on Hwy 46 that leads to Savannah, Hwy 170, Bluffton (unless you’re coming from there) and a gaggle of new housing developments. House I obtained was overpriced at ~$250k but since the economy is like ‘lolno’ they lowered the prices about 100k.
So ~$150k.
And it’s good. I have a Jacuzzi tub. I’m pretty sure I could just sleep in the master bathroom because of that Jacuzzi tub.

But it’s a very nice house. Good for a single resident; 3BR/2BA and one of the bedrooms I’ll use as my office. So I can do important shit there. Like type on my laptop.
Then the other bedroom I may put my current bed in there and purchase a sweet Rooms 2 Go bedroom set for my room. Maybe. It all depends upon if money allows it.
It should allow it. If not at first then at second. Lulz.

Though I certainly am quite excited about this new house; about the fact that I basically own it and it hasn’t completely hit me that before long I’ll be living in it, that my drive home will be to there, not here, my house for nearly eighteen+ years.
So right now it’s almost surreal. A big part of me cannot imagine living in a new environment.
Though I am quite excited. Everything will be brand new. Furniture, big fucking television, everything.

New things, new things.
Next new things:

Me, myself and I.
I think I’ve been trying too hard and in turn killed all of my friends.
Not literally obviously. It’s just a hassle; spending time alone and having no one even consider looking to you to hang out. Naturally I try to contact people who often either blow me off or ask why I don’t enjoy spending time alone.
My response never changes and still won’t change: When you live as I have for the past three years; losing all of your friends and your girlfriend and you spend almost every hour of every day completely alone you get sick of it and quickly.

The sad thing is that once one starts being around people he quickly becomes addicted to company, friendly company anyway. At least I did.

So I think it’s time to change.
Suffer alone, perhaps, for however long it takes but never look to do anything since I’m often disappointed with the responses I get and always turn those people off on hanging out with me.
Obviously hang out at my sexy new house and take a sexy Jacuzzi bath in my sexy bath tub.
Work out at the gym as regularly as I do now to pass the time in a productive way.
Get a fucking job. That’s another problem, I think. Being alone makes me want to be around a person which turns those people off on wanting to be around me.
Which is strange.
Ultimately, become attractive again and not physically.
Find confidence in general because I’ve never had an air of confidence about me which has lost me every girl I’ve ever dated and not only that but friends too.

Awww, so sad, I know.
Haha, who cares anyway?

Relationships one can certainly consider only petty are absolutely nothing in comparison to having death knock upon your door.
Luckily, I've not answered yet.
I think perhaps he's left. Door to door death services.

In closing, I am sososo excited about my new house. Quite excited as well about the beginning of school.

A brief overlook.

2009-07-27T11:04:00.001-04:00

So it’s been a while since I’ve updated this.
I haven’t been blogging on schedule and until recently I didn’t understand that people (see also: person) actually gave a shit that I regularly update this blog.
Even if it’s the normal bullshit.

Regardless, I figure if I please no one I may as well please her.
Because there was a time where she meant greatly to me.

So, RECENTLY,

I’ve not done many things. I acquired Rosetta Stone: Latin American Spanish.
$500 down the drain.

I mean it seems that it works. I just need to stick in more effort.
Since my effort isn’t there.
In anything.

And I think that’s a big problem. I have very little (to no) passion in anything. Everything seems just so superficial. I just don’t care.
Ten years from now if I’m in the exact same position as far as education goes I don’t care: as long as I am happily alongside another with a family.
Jobs are irrelevant. I know I’ll make no difference to the world. I’ll never be in a history book. Neither will you, least you have about the same chance as I do.
Be in the right place at the right time is all. Have a position of power at the correct time. I don’t desire a position of power. I desire naught but happiness. Know what I mean? I’ve no purpose in making a difference. I don’t want to. I’ve learned in twenty-one years that people are more occupied with their own drama than to occupy their minds with other issues.

That’s irrelevant though.
Just a rant. Sort of.

I met someone recently.
Sort of.
She’s young, sort of.
But it doesn’t bother me because I think the world of her.
I can only hope our meet in person does us both well; that I can treat her as she likes and not have to put any attempt into it: it just happens. Know what I mean?
That every girl I’d ever dated before this one (provided we date) was just practice so that I could understand how to treat her. Because so far she’s wonderful.

Moving on,
Ross arrives in Bluffton soon enough. I am excited about that as well.
I just want to hang out with him and Casey thinks he’s cool and god knows: they had one hell of a long and confusing MLB conversation more recently that showed they’re bound to be at least decent friends.
One can only hope everything clicks.
That everything returns to being as blissful as I was only months prior (when I was still with Tay Tay).

Since that’s what life is, to a point, isn’t it?
Being happy is the catalyst when it comes to making others the same way?

Personally, I love to make her laugh; Megan.
I feel good that she feels good.
It’s a win/win.

This blog jumped around but I don’t care. It’s my Monday blog and I haven’t written in ages.
This is how I’ve been recently and I’m sure that’s interesting enough.
I know it’s sad; I jump left and right from girl to girl.
I’m enamored with one girl one day and a week later it’s another. One can only hope I’m set with this one. I hate jumping around. It didn’t feel good to lose Tay Tay and when I did I vowed to say fuck it: if all they want is sex then I can deal.

Being a male you’d figure that’s all I’d be looking for anyway, especially at 21.
But it’s not. Far from it. Soon as I finished with the lot of them, dropped them off and never spoke to them again I felt unfulfilled. One night stands feel good but only for that night. You wake the next morning and you expect more than you received.

Not much you can do. Physical satisfaction has been made and that’s what the deal was. There was no pursuit of an actual relationship after with any of them.

Which is exactly why with Megan I will try to treat it differently. I won’t be looking for sex by any means. Not after the first several times we meet. Not until she’s ready. Respect is where it starts.
But nice guys do finish last. I need to not tell myself that but I’ve no desire to be a bad guy,
I’ve no desire to lie; to be an asshole but insist upon being a nice guy regardless.

Though I promise, I’ll figure this one out.
I won’t lose her, not by my own fault.

How do you live?

2009-07-06T11:33:00.002-04:00

Of course the title is rhetorical.
Since I'm here to explain changes in my way.
Sort of.
Get some more direction, you see.

Given that my days consists largely of bullshit and if I didn't needlessly waste them behind this thing or behind the PS3 I would get a bit more done.

So, from here on out my Monday/Friday blogs will have more meaning behind them (rather than my waking up Monday morning and writing the first thing that pops into my head) and I'll spend more time with that silly guitar.

That's really all.
I'm getting a house pretty soon.
School is starting pretty soon and god knows I cannot wait for that.

I needs me some new direction!
If I'm not with Casey or anyone else I'm here wasting away so it'd be best to take the wasting away time and make better use of it. Build towards something.

lollers.

Just a day late

2009-07-04T10:09:00.000-04:00

So,
Yesterday I was called something I’ve never in my life been called. Not ever.
It’s mostly because that is primarily something I’ve never been, am not and never will be.
The word used was conceited.

It’s amazing, really. Like I simply passed by and missed a flyer saying that I was a conceited asshole.

No.

I went through school being picked on.
I went through my car accident in which I was looked down upon (not a height joke lulz) more than I’ve ever been before; an accident that lost me almost every single one of my friends. And my girlfriend.

But I’m conceited?

No. I may have a bit of a complex in that I am quick to assume the stranger I’m speaking to is a fucking moron but I’ve been pleasantly surprised with few (very very few) people. Okay one person.
But she’s not been a fan of mine for over a month.

Everyone else I was quick to find was worthless as far as smarts and common sense goes.
It’s funny, really.

Conceited. A joke, I think. I lost someone due to my conceit but right now it’s starting to matter less and less.

There are things that people should learn. People and even the person who told me this. Nothing. Nothing lasts forever. Friendships are similar to romance in that everything can end more swiftly than it began.

But time goes on. It’s best to cherish what you have when you have it; try not to let it escape you. Keep everything til the last minute or you’ll regret it.

But conceited?! Give me a fucking break.
Laughable at best.

Yes I’ve got a whole bunch of interesting gizmos due to my settlement.
Yes I’ve had several girls tell me “yes you’re good enough” (though no in actual speech) in allowing me to take them out and have a good time.

It’s boosted my confidence in myself to be sure.
Not enough to make me conceited or even close,
I know people who are far worse than me and I don’t even consider them to be conceited.

It’s just fucking amazing how the world works; how worthless people are.
It’s difficult not to find someone who isn’t a waste of my fucking time. Such a hassle in truth.

Don't panic she said, just hold tight

2009-06-29T10:55:00.001-04:00

I feel a bit fuller of malice than I’ve felt in a while.
And it’s all because of death.

Now it’s tired, but the Michael Jackson thing. He’s dead. And people act like they care. It’s disgusting because the same thing happened to me.

People I didn’t even know; people I know I wasn’t responsible for affecting their lives at all acted like they gave a shit about me when I was inches away from death. Why?

I think it’s because of the fact that their friends were my friends and it would make them look better to put on a caring face though obviously not give two shits.
I fucking hate people though, so hey.

To go to another me topic, since it is my blog after all: I think I know the least attractive thing about me.
I have no direction in my life. Sure, I’ve a fair amount of money but I don’t have anything I care enough about to throw it at. Nothing to chase after, per se. No goals beyond than “finish school and hope for the best” but that’s no good. I assume I may find something that interests me within the next couple years.

I think the hermit idea wasn’t a bad one, but as much as I hate people there are a few that I favor.
If yesterday is any indication, the hermit idea may actually be bad. Since I’ve grown too dependent on people in general. People, I believe saved me last night for what was becoming something completely different but wholly morbid and depressing.
Well people, alcohol and Tiger Woods.

But it’s not so bad being trendy//

The Guillotine

2009-06-26T10:36:00.002-04:00

So it makes no sense to me.

Celebrities die quite usually as normally as “normal” people do.
Yet when a celebrity dies, these normal people are equally as compassionate and “caring” about it as if Michael Jackson was their own fucking father.

Do these people realize that these celebrities, these famous people are just like they are, more often than not?
Very likely worse than they ever were, drunk with money and power; fame in general.

I mean, people constantly die. It’s the circle of life.
Jackson in no way affected my life or what I do. I never listened to him because I didn’t like him.
Do people really just listen to the media and greatly mourn what it tells them to?

People die all the time; these dead celebrities were likely worse people than your average “normal” person.

Whatever, I’ve lost interest in continuing writing this.
Celebrities are normal people too. Being filthy fucking rich doesn’t make them immortal.
I just think people should stop listening to the American media: fear this, mourn this, buy this, be happy we’re saving you from this.

Adam the hermit lives in the marsh beyond the forest

2009-06-22T10:36:00.000-04:00

Squall was the most correct emo character ever.

People are endlessly difficult, and once you grow accustomed to having them at your side you miss it when they’re gone.
So, in a way, people and requirement to rely on them is a weakness in a way.
An addiction maybe.

And it’s even worse for me to be addicted to people since I expect I’m doubly smarter than most of the people I come into contact with and not only that but I absolutely hate everyone.

You hate people!
But, I love gatherings, isn't it ironic?

Unless of course I give them the chance to prove themselves to me, but it’s a safe assumption that everyone I meet is not only below me in more ways than one (aside from stature haha) but a worthless liar which, in turn, will cause me not to trust them.

It is interesting to talk down to so many people indirectly but still not convince myself to be a hermit and quit them completely.
Because being a hermit could work. Live in my own little hut. Scare away visitors from my area. Get people to go on quests to retrieve for me arbitrary items truly I have no use for.
Yeah, I could do that. And have a dog. Not a cool dog but like a Rottweiler or something. And he’d be obedient but only to me, chasing away anyone else unless I forbid him to.
I could have a whole bunch of interesting items.
Most of which are useless to me, but to my visitors (once every 34 years) one of the items would be priceless and necessary for them and their quest.

Yeah dude, I’m really considering quitting people all together.
Worthless people and their worthless stories and my cool dog (that I’d name Frank. Frank the dog) and my little marshside hut to make it all spooky.
How cool would that be?

4 the lulz

2009-06-19T13:37:00.004-04:00

Fridays!

~~Chaser and his brother Jin sat alone in their apartment, Chaser on the couch that sat with a picture of the AR four (Chaser, Jin, Nikki and Sergio) and Jin on a stool in the kitchen.~~

Fuck it. I don't fucking feel like writing anything.
I fucking hate females.

Positive thing: drinking tonight^^

Exhausted

2009-06-15T13:51:00.004-04:00

So it's Monday.
I had an amazing night last night in which I only received ~3-4 hours of sleep.
Which, of course, is bullshit.

So I'm writing on what little energy I have left and living on less money than I had the day previous.
Which isn't so important to me as long as she had fun, because god knows I did.

It feels good, again, to have a spot of even minor importance in someone's life.
Either way, I'm hesitant to think which way it will, or may, go.
I suppose there are a lot of factors that apply to relationships with people (as I've so brilliantly found) and this one too has a fair amount of red tape.

And either way, I always think too far into shit like this and I hate it.
Whatever.
So, I'm fighting myself as to whether I start paying for this online dating shit.
Because it costs money, and a lot of it.
Hm.
I've found more than one person online and met more than one person as well.
I've had a lot of fun with all of those people.
What should I do?

Yeah

2009-06-12T16:40:00.004-04:00

Lulz.
So I had this whole elaborate blog I started this morning.
It was just a retelling of the Icarus & Daedalus story.
With the wings.
And the sun.
And the death.

But I wrote part of it, got distracted from it, and now I don't feel like completing it.
Either way, I'm quite confused as to where I stand exactly.
Quite, quite, quite.

Regardless, I feel good because I'm slowly getting the stones necessary to talk with people.
Though I am often disappointed with the outcome (usually because the person at hand is amazingly stupid), it's still good to make new friends.
Friends = happiness.
Lulz.
That was gay, I'm sorry.

Really all I can say is I hope I have a good weekend.
That today ends well, better than it began anyway. So far, it's seeming like it may, regardless of occurrences later.

There is just an itch.
Needs be scratched.
I really like the English language.

I really need to get to my guitar. Fucking now.

Motivation necessary

2009-06-08T10:41:00.003-04:00

So, it's Monday. Means I've a necessary update to make.
So I got a guitar the other day.
I'm terrible with it, but it's just the beginning. I'll be Adrian Smith in no time.

Wow. I cannot think of anything else to write so,
I suppose I'll leave it here.
Bye blog (lulz).

A June assignment lulz

2009-06-05T08:48:00.002-04:00

So. Hello blog. You're my only true friend.
Hahaha. No, but really. I was a twat for the last two blogs and you didn't say so. So I want to apologize to a very digital object that has no feelings and in turn apologize to anyone who happened across the two blogs previous this one. Eighteen is a scary number.
I'm actually a bit tired, but I figure I'll write that June writing assignment (for lack of anything else relevant coming to mind).

What have I done/what am I doing with my summer?
My summer adventures (or misadventures).
Well, I suppose my summer exploits began officially when I took arbitrary trips to Charleston to meet a girl. That is always an annoying, never enjoyable drive. Haha.
Charleston then went to me buying my new car [2009 Mitsubishi Lancer Ralliart]. It's blue. And pretty. But a manly pretty.
Then I went to see the best show I've ever been to in the Vanna concert. Best show ever, without question.
Since I enjoy music so much, my next bit of summer will be devoted to purchasing and learning the guitar (like apparently every stupid male does). With luck, I'll have that by next week at the latest.
To finalize summer, I may [maymaymay] end it with the Warped Tour. Possibly. That's the only bit not set in stone, but I suppose nothing that hasn't happened already ever is. So we'll see. Making plans is terrible.

A short read but a good one, no doubt.

Better direction necessary

2009-06-01T14:34:00.002-04:00

Of course it's better than me just pissing and moaning about things that proved quite superficial.
A new day has begun, no doubt.
Less sad than the day prior and more 'get up and go'.

So I've got desire to explore, to find something new to do.
And in turn, someone to do it with.

And desire to cut my tongue out of my mouth so I won't have to put up with this pain any longer, but I think that would only be creating new problem.

She's a Real Battleaxe

Okay, maybe I have no direction necessarily. Nothing I can consider writing that would be worth much of anything.
A blank mind.
A clean slate.

No smoking and no drinking for at least a week.
Pity me.
Haha.
I've got to say, this piercing better have been worth it and then some. I suppose it'll be a while before I get the opportunity to try it out [lulz wink wink].
And even then I couldn't try it out now since it needs to heal.
But the lucky thing is, a friend said it once.
She referred to my healing as being similar to Wolverine's.
So, you know.
Tomorrow it'll be all better.
Actually it's a pretty quick healing process for anyone.
Apparently the tongue is a master of it.

Anyway.
I've got little desire to do much now, to do much of anything that doesn't require large sums of money.
I need this silly trust lady to get off of vacation so I can get my check for my guitar.
And my other stuff.
Guitar is pretty primary though.
That plus working plus eventually school will give me lots and lots of direction.
Speaking of direction, I wonder what Casey is doing today.

A lazy Monday blog

2009-05-31T20:57:00.003-04:00

And look at that, a day early.
Last ones a day late, this ones a day early.

And here, incoming, is a rant.
Whatever.
I want school to restart. Now.
I'm so angry just fucking sitting here so many of my days. I've sat here enough fucking days after that silly car accident to have any desire to want anymore fucking alone time. I'm fucking sick of it.

I need a job and I need school to start. Sitting on my ass is unbecoming. And a waste of time at that.

How frustrating.

I've not been this angry in some time. It's about things that it'd be ignorant if I said I didn't have any control over because I do. Sure, I cannot make school start any sooner but I'm sure there are other things I could do to pass the time faster that's not JUST hanging out with Casey when applicable.

I've got to meet some more people. The problem is, everyone I meet is fucking worthless by my own standards.

I'm just tired of it, of everything.
Why won't it all just fucking end? All turn positive?
Why is it all so frustrating?

Why, why, why, why.
I wonder why I'm here right now typing this; why I'm not six feet under like I should have been three years back. I've got to find reason. The necessary reason as to why I'm here still, unless it was just luck and of course, my mad survival skills that were all self-taught. I'd bet more on the latter but that's a belief thing I'll not go into.
Just because all that requires too much thinking.
And is frustrating, can be viewed from two different sides and whatever.

It is an irony, I think. How little money and having it means.
I love how people always say they'd be happy if only they had more money. They're full of shit, have no idea what it's like to be rich anyway. It's not much different from being shit-broke.
Life still has it's ups and downs.
It doesn't really get any "better", unless by better you're thinking material possessions which are nice at first, I suppose, but once again, not even close to necessary and don't bring happiness at all.

Sure, I like my car. Sure, I like my laptop I'm typing this on now.
Do they make me happy? No.
Temporary happiness, maybe. Happiness that has long passed. Now they're normal. I've grown used to them.

I think that's why happiness is found in people, in your companions. Your truly faithful companions that would be there through thick and thin.
Fuck man.

I hate all of this.
My tongue-piercing is pissing me off anyway.
Whatever.

*edit*

Nevermind, my girlfriend and I broke up, to add to the sorrow.
Haha, oh well. I expected it would come soon anyway.
Niggaz just wasn't clicking.
Whatever.
I know not what else to say, except sing Sorrow by Bad Religion with me.
Just makes me sad, since we'd had some good memories. It was only a month though so, I guess not the largest amount of time ever.
Whatever. Bye Monday blog.

[Late] blog time

2009-05-30T01:25:00.003-04:00

So this is my late blog.
Only a bit late, you see.
Hell of a night.

I think I made a boo boo I'll need fix yet.
We'll see how it all goes tomorrow.
Not much else to say except I appreciate the female in my life more than she knows.

Problem number 1: I worry way too much.
Haha.
It'll all be alright soon, no doubt.

Quick update (for lack of one on Friday)

2009-05-25T15:11:00.004-04:00

This is why it helps to have a girl in your life.
She noticed that my Friday blog didn't exist.
Oooh there are a lot of things that don't exist. Aren't there?

That made no sense.

But needless to say, this is my Friday blog! Welcome last Friday! Whatever I did that day, I don't remember...
I probably got drunk...

I've been doing that far too frequently lately, as I had similar adventures last night (of the drunken variety).
And the MLB variety. First while sober then while drunk.

This blog could use some direction, no?

Alcohol and it's consumption:

It's bad for you. Sort of.
Bad for your head. Your brain, that pink-ish beast living in your cranium.
But that's okay because it's fun.
In moderation of course.

Throwing up:

Not fun.
Not ever.
Like, throwing up is your body punishing you for being such a twat.

Passing out:

Your body's way of being the bartender and telling you that you've had enough.
Though I can't imagine, if you're at the running of the bulls, that passing out would be a positive thing.
Since bulls would stomp on your face.

Types of alcohol and their wonderfulness (or not so much):

Rum: Amazing
Vodka: Pretty damn good
Firefly (Sweet Tea Vodka): Kind of goes with the above, but it tastes like sweet tea! Yes!
Whiskey: Shit. Like who the fuck drinks this crap?
Jagermeister: Quite delectable.
Tequila: Not terrible, but at the same time not amazing.

Okay that's all I've had (*is a boring person*)

We can't survive if we both let go

Goodbye, goodnight, for good.

2009-05-25T11:13:00.002-04:00

It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to let you go
It'd break my heart, if we fell apart.
It'd be so hard to watch you go

ADTR is basically awesome.

So empty

2009-05-18T14:01:00.003-04:00

I'm so empty.
There's just nothing going on in my life worth talking about.
Nothing that I haven't already killed and then some.
I've been thinking of writing again,
But nothing has come to mind.
I mentioned the possibility of a poem to Taylor,
But nothing huge has come to mind.
I'm oh-so-empty.

So I'll give you (and her specifically) a poem I'd written a ways back.
Probably my best poem, I think.
Here it is:

Once

We sat untouched, unscathed
Beneath the shade of trees
We shared our dreams, a proverbial fruit

But now reality has left us beaten and battered
The shade which had previously harbored us has all but vanished
The fruits of our dreams have been reduced to cores

And now we are lost and running
Wiping the tears from our eyes
We cling to dreams nearly lost, fearing we may lose it all

There is little certainty left to us
What will become of us?

One thing is certain,

Hopeless dreamers we are
But eternal dreamers we forever will be
Sitting, sharing, running, clinging
Under cerulean skies

blank!

2009-05-15T11:47:00.002-04:00

So. So hi, internet.
You're such a confusing creature. I know a lot about you, but there are still things about you that escape me.
It matters not.
I don't want to talk about you, internet. Not in a blog about me.
I don't mean to offend, "world-wide web", but I think for this moment, on this blog, I consider myself far more important than you've ever been, than you'll ever be.

Now, to me.
To me, to me, to me.
To my friends, to my girlfriend, to my family (and my three cats).

To them, to everyone. Life, at the moment, is pretty flawless. I can only hope it stays that way. But I'll not be negative about it. Life will not change for the worst. Not if I can help it. And with Taylor at my side, with Casey as a friend and with a great supporting cast I've said before I believe myself to be invincible, that there be nothing I cannot accomplish.

Especially since I have 3 (three) felines who are the most important of the supporting cast. Lollers...
No, really though. Cats are pretty cool.

I suppose this is a pretty lackluster blog overall.
There isn't much to write about, other than the fact that I anticipate next time I see Taylor, I anticipate next time I can do a lot of things.
But a fair amount of us live our lives on the edge of our seats, just waiting for our next moment of bliss.
Oh well.
What can I say?

I should get back to my story. Not a bad idea.

A Mon--- er... Tuesday blog

2009-05-12T00:14:00.003-04:00

A Mond-- er... Tuesday blog.
You see, things today were hectic and perhaps somewhat exciting. And that's my excuse for being late.

To begin,
It may be a common saying that when one wakes in a place and thinks he is in another instead, that the night previous was a good one.
This happened to me this (Monday) morning, as I woke in Columbia thinking I was still in Charlotte.

And that is what happened.
And I lost my damn Red Sox hat. New one incoming! Haha... Perhaps several new ones. I think I can pull hats off.

The concert night was amazing. Beer after beer after Vanna after beer. Tall PBR's the whole night, an interesting conversation (and a picture) with one of the Vanna members, a couple shirts (one for me: "GIRLS, BEER, FOOD, VANNA, GUNS, KNIVES, FIRE" and one for Taylor, that shall remain undisclosed lulz).
An amazing weekend overall.

Spending time with Taylor on Friday and some of Saturday, I think we did grow a bit closer and grow closer still day by day.
See what we can do with that lulz.

Then of course comes Sunday and I've already explained that lot.
Drink after drink after drink after omfgbands after omfg reckless abandon and eventual passing out to being re-awoken to some other stuff that I just don't remember.
But I lost my Red Sox hat.
God dammit.
I think I've finally found a place I belong.
And it feels good lulz.

Here are a couple pictures (to sate my readers' taste):

This would be the screamer from Vanna and I. Dude is totally my height, which proves that little people can reach the stars.

This would be the same gentleman from Vanna and Me, Anna, Patrick and Casey.

It is amazing how prior to the beginning of the show, I bought t-shirts for my girlfriend and I from the bassist for the band before I knew it was him.

The bands we saw (but especially Vanna since I spoke to them) were awesome, and really person to person. After they were done playing they left the stage and went to hang out, to drink with their fans.
Fans are what made them what they are, and they seem to respect that.

Cheers to Vanna, to bands like them.

To Charleston, it would seem

2009-05-08T08:13:00.003-04:00

I welcome the day with open arms.
It'll be a long one, but perhaps the best one I've had in years.

(Several [several] hours later):

Okay.
It's 2:13 at the time of me typing this sentence.

I am going to leave for Charleston by 4, if not earlier.
I want to get there as soon as I can.
I want to see my girlfriend.

You see, at my offer (per her request) we agreed Friday was a good day for me to drive up and see her (in my new car).
We are staying in a hotel and are going to have an amazing night together.
Growing closer than we have in ever.

I've no bad thoughts about her or about this relationship.
I believe, though it's only been a short time talking and going out that we can reach the stars together.
I suppose decisions have to be made at ~6 months as to whether or not we are truly for each other.
But time limits and deadlines bug me.
I'm happy now; happy with Taylor and I do intend for it to stay that way.

I must leave soon for Charleston though, so I oughta finish packing my bags.
Goodbye for Friday, blog.

Behind closed doors hey

2009-05-04T09:28:00.002-04:00

So, coffee.
It's nice to see you again.
You're always here, always in the same spot every morning.
And you always make my day; it never fails.

You taste good, you're so hot.
I'm sure you hear that a lot though.
It must get sickening over a time, does it?
Men and women putting you on a pedestal; calling you the best part (of their morning).

But what can I say, coffee?
You do certainly make my morning; make my days better as a result of your presence.
Especially if you've come from Dunkin Donuts.

Nonetheless, enough about coffee.
She's wonderful, certainly.
But she's no longer here.

So, what else is there to write about?

Goodness, I woke up this morning and coffee was literally the only thing on my mind, how I wanted more of it each second.
But that could be a bad thing, no?
Unattractive for the coffee, perhaps.
I mean it didn't matter for the coffee because bastard is gone.

She left quietly.
And now I miss her.
But there is no more coffee.
I've got to make sure she'll come back, though.

I need put on the face that this warm beverage wants to see: change for her, if I can do it. Because god knows I need to for everyone's benefit.

We are Nameless

2009-05-01T12:09:00.003-04:00

Using the "I'm happy" mood avatar perhaps is getting old, no? Well I suppose I am happy. Nothing wrong with my life today^^

Anyway, I've been thinking about gaming a bit recently.
It's grown less and less interesting to me. I enjoy the casual shit which is amazing and sort of disrespectful to my character to say.
Rock Band, MLB, Madden and any fighter. Games that aren't so deep compared to games within the role-playing genre.

On top of that, I've found that genre far less attractive than when I was younger. I can still remember playing Final Fantasy VIII and feeling for the characters; Xenogears and longing to continue on in the story because I was so eager to see what happened next (and Citan was awesome).

Either the stories are getting worse or I've grown older and overall less interested in the trying times of some girly looking men.

Don't get me wrong-- I still loves games and gaming in general I just... somehow... fall into the demographic that targets oh-so-many, but never me.
Never me until now, it seems. And by the demographic that's being targeted, I'm speaking of the casual gamer.
I wouldn't get along with the "casual gamer" because, typically, they have little to no idea what I'm even talking about in description of a path to take or a way to do something better than fumbling around the controller, hoping for the best.

So perhaps I'm in between casual and hardcore. I've the knowledge of a hardcore gamer but not the drive to endlessly look up trailers and screenshots for games that, honestly, I don't give a flying fuck about 'til they're released. And even then, a trailer I saw recently for Final Fantasy XIII was disappointing, I thought. I expected so much more but it just didn't match what I saw in my head when I created a possible battle and how it would work.

Or maybe games just suck now.
Maybe I settle for the best I can find, which is often average compared to what I'd played in the past. Perhaps we all think that way though: the very best was what we were first introduced to at a young age. So maybe that's why, to me, the very best is the NES and SNES.

Oh well, rant over.

A Wednesday blog: Guilty Pleasures

2009-04-29T22:26:00.002-04:00

But first, I miss Taylor.
Mourn with me briefly, as I'm not sure when I'll have the chance to see her again.

Done mourning?
Did you mourn at all?

Asshole.

Anyway, guilty pleasures.
I'm updating the blog on Wednesday mainly because imagined it best to put off reading and schoolwork another ten minutes and take part in their activity.
Being part of the community is great.
I guess.

I think sarcasm is a guilty pleasure of mine. I'm not even the worst I know, but some people just take things too seriously.

Beyond that, I guess smoking is as well, to an extent.
I mean, it's an addictive sort of thing.
At times harrowing after I have one like, wow, I'm going to live less time than I would have had I not just did that.
But whatever.

Video games!
I like to play them; they often take up hours of my time that could have better been used doing anything useful (like studying or working out or talking to my girlfriend or god damn near anything).

Good enough? Yes?
I'd say that's about the lot of them, those guilty pleasures.
So there you go^^;;

I miss Taylor;-;

Some things that have taken realizing

2009-04-27T08:05:00.003-04:00

So it's Monday.
I suppose it pertinent to post my Monday blog, even though I posted a blog yesterday that as far as I'm concerned cannot be beaten.

But I must keep to schedule, as I even said that I would update in between those two days, specifically if something amazing happened. But I can't think of much else to write about.

I realize why I've fallen for her though. Her mindset is somewhat familiar and I'm thankful that she's not a bumbling idiot like I am oh-so-used to.
Beautiful, great, fun and she laughs at my silly jokes (or not jokes but sarcastic comments).
In short, she's wonderful.

Anywho, to expand on things in general I'm not sure as to whether I will hit the gym today.
I'm not sure what I'll do today.
I've got a paper to work on; a paper that is worth 25% of my grade.

I've things to do that will (or may) get done.

Absolutely nothing beats this blog

2009-04-26T01:15:00.003-04:00

And so it begins.

The eve previous this one, I spoke to my new (but very good) friend Taylor after drinking a little bit at Casey's. I wasn't so much drunk, per se, as I was lightly (or perhaps greatly- don't remember which) buzzed.

I awoke this morning to a "good morning" text message from Taylor. I smiled, sending one back, thinking in my head that she beat me at my own game as I wanted to be the first to text her upon my own awakening.

As I began my day, my only intentions were to spend time playing MLB 09: The Show and catch the Red Sox game against the Yankees (which, by the way, the Sox won).

But things changed.

Speaking to Taylor via text message, she was lamenting the fact that her friend E.J and her boyfriend were going to get sushi, inviting her along. She unfortunately declined, as she was short on funds to put towards food.

And this, of course, is where I stepped in.

I told her, theoretically, what if some random asshole came to Charleston, offering to get her whatever she desired for dinner.

Hesitant at first, she finally agreed that I drive up and (finally) meet her in person.

I arrived at almost 6:00 PM.
After getting to know her better at the beach just talking, we eventually found ourselves in a Japanese sushi bar.
I learned sushi actually isn't so bad.
But I paid for our dinner, and as we left I pulled her aside. I got down on one knee and presented her with a green plastic Piggly Wiggly ring, asking: "Will you go out with me?"
She agreed, and I am still immensely happy that she did.

We spent several more hours after in what I can only describe as bliss.

Brings me to another subject, I suppose:
It's amazing, isn't it? Facebook, MySpace, internet connectivity of people in general is likely the greatest thing in our century and then some.

I met Taylor via Facebook; a simple message sent inquiring about my major turned into so much more.
We talked and talked and oh so endlessly spoke about anything and everything that came to mind. Nothing being off limits, we asked questions from the deepest darkest (and dirtiest) roads to simple questions like: Do you have any desire to travel the world?

Over our short week or couple weeks talking to each other, we let nothing get in the way of our conversations. Friends' opinions and strange first impressions didn't affect us at all.
And now we're dating.
And I am oh so happy with my life.

A very good friend Casey sent me a text message earlier, talking about Taylor and I's relationship to me seeing a Vanna show in the month following with him: how could life be any better?

Yeah, to be honest there isn't any room left for improvement. I am so fucking happy right now.

How terrible

2009-04-24T09:04:00.002-04:00

I must say: I am quite content and then some.
Oh, and exhausted. But happy comes before that.

Either way, I'm not sure what to write about today. It's Friday, sure, so this thing is due to be updated.
At some point I must reach the school but before that the gym.

I've met a wonderful girl and I'm thankful for it.
I look forward to her arrival in this bumfuck town.

I've got to think of something worth writing though my mind is clouded.
Hm.
I can Google something to write about.

No good...
So let's write about Subway.
That is to say, Subway the restaurant, not the large underground train. You see, I don't live anywhere near a Subway.

So, the restaurant!

Lately I've found myself, upon enterings, getting a chicken-bacon-ranch.
And that's pretty good.
Subway uses the colors green and yellow almost exclusively.
Apparently they enjoy them.

And that's cool. I mean if they're your colors then I'm all for it.
But what if I want to use green or perhaps yellow; maybe both together?
Would I be copying Subway?

Can you copyright colors?
Wow, I've lost it.

Perhaps I should choose another topic.

I must reach the gym though.
Time will not wait for me to write this.
And I need a cup of coffee and perhaps breakfast.

We need a Dunkin Donuts nearby.

When it all comes down to a frozen ocean between us

2009-04-20T12:30:00.004-04:00

Something a bit more relevant.
I've got to dig deep in there and find something worth writing about.

I haven't written much or read much most recently so that's a null topic.
Well, maybe not.

So I've been [semi] working on my story [semi] recently and I've realized I can't begin the story without first introducing the parents; allowing the reader to feel sorry for their imminent downfall.

The first paragraph doesn't let you feel as sorry for the characters that were (and weren't) introduced, as it reads:

"That evening, a sobbing Chaser and his brother Jin were dragged from their house and put into a van against their will, and neither of them had much clue as to what was going on. A tall, well-dressed man simply approached their house that evening, unlocked and opened their front door and, with two others behind him, took five year old Chaser and seven year old Jin from their home, explaining that their parents would not be returning. He explained it no further, though Jin pleaded for him to and his brother, Chaser just sobbed at what little news he was given."

Though I suppose a good idea would be to have Chaser have dreams that introduce the parents and allow the reader to understand his mourning their death.
That's not a bad idea.
What do you think [Ferenheit]?

On top of that, I was thinking of writing the story from different perspectives rather than having a single main character.
Example: the "kidnapping" (as Jin will call it) is told from Jin's perspective. The arrival at the orphanage is told from Chaser's.
My other two characters, Nikki and Sergio, may have portions told from their perspectives as well, but I'm not 100% sure yet.
I don't truly know since I wanted them (or Nikki, rather) to be somewhat mysterious to the reader.

So maybe Chaser/Jin perspectives is how it should be told.
And from the Chaser perspectives he should (at times) dream of his family so the parents get characterization as well.

I don't think it's a bad idea; it's just a lot to handle.
As with most things, in due time.

Good day^^

Never thought I'd be on a boat

2009-04-17T10:30:00.002-04:00

This is the start of a new tomorrow.
Poseidon, look at me.
Everybody look at me cause I'm sailin' on a boat.

Gonna fly this boat to the moon somehow...

Greatest song ever.

Either way, to change the subject,
I'm finally writing my story.
Of sorts.

I would share it, but it needs a lot of editing.
So maybe next time.

Regardless, I need a good beginning. One that introduces the parents who last for maybe a page and then are murdered-- murdered I say!
So I think I may rewind from where I am, edit, edit, edit.

This blog is short as well I guess.
I blame it for need of writing, reading and listening to Vanna.
Because Vanna is pretty damn cool.

Guns and owning them

2009-04-13T10:08:00.002-04:00

What's the good?
Like, okay, maybe I'm speaking ignorantly since I live in the most rural area where nothing can possibly ever happen to you but that doesn't matter since people even here still insist they require a firearm (or firearms) for protection.

Here especially: protection from what? Aliens? Monsters? Zombie pizza delivery men? Each other?
Is your neighbor so untrustworthy that you need a weapon to protect yourself from him?

Now stop.

I'll give it to denizens of Detroit or any other city with a far higher crime rate than my silly town that owning a gun is perhaps a permissible offense.

But still.
How outdated and ridiculous is our "right to bear arms". What if it really does mean you have a right to hang a pair of bear arms upon your wall?

Even then, due to lack of research (and desire to) it's still beyond me as to what exactly it is that puts the USA at the top of the list as far as gun deaths go.

I mean, I'm sure it has a lot to do with our attitude and at this point I don't think there is much changing that.
I just wonder what our forefathers would say if they'd seen where we've gone and what war-mongers that led the country and if they even should have (see: Bush Jr.).

Let me tell you a story to chill the bones

2009-04-10T08:34:00.002-04:00

This is legitimate.

So Casey and I spent what was the entirety of last night finishing off my full bottle of Firefly vodka.
Was a "celebration" bottle, per se.

But that's not important.

What's important is I learned a lot last night about friends and friendships in whatever drunken stupor I was in.

To be honest I have no idea where I'm going with this blog.
I'm still buzzed a bit and I spent like half the morning throwing up so that's gotta count for something.

So right now I need to think of two more sports teams I favor.
Done.
Facebook is great.

So I have to go to the school today but I think I should make sure I'm safe to drive (and not throw up anymore).

Short blog? Yes.
My excuse? Still drunk^^;

Back to Reality

2009-04-06T07:40:00.002-04:00

And as such, back to Monday.

So the weekend was pretty good I suppose.
Or at least Friday was.

On Friday I tagged along with a classmate to go see Souls Harbor out in Port Royal.
And since it was at a bar, I got a little drunk.

And that was fun; drinking around strangers who I'd just been introduced to (and of course my classmate).
But there were fun parts. And I got to see my first pair of tits in well over a year, almost two.

Moral of the story is good things happen to those who are convinced to be present in a place they otherwise wouldn't feel comfortable.
I mean this primarily for the breasts I was shown, since everything else was just beer and silly (but fun actually) conversation.

Either way, life goes on.

I've got to grab a few new games once I get my money. It was recently approved to go into the trust fund so now I just wait until the money gets from point A to point B (B being the good point) and then I oughta find some interesting games.
I mean, MLB 09 is great fun but after a while I grow more and more used to it, if that makes any sense.
I'd like something new, something that obviously won't be the same 'ol same 'ol right away.

I've also got to start writing again. I just haven't had the urge to do so lately. I haven't been able to come up with an interesting story.
Maybe because I'm swamped with schoolwork that I don't do or maybe it's something else.
A lot needs to be done.
I need to switch my personality from who I was to who I am, the 'who I am' not being fully discovered yet. I need to brainstorm an idea for an interesting adventure for some characters and most of all I need to do my schoolwork.

I suppose the best suggestion would be to get to it, no?

A Friday scenario

2009-04-03T07:41:00.002-04:00

Yes, so today is the day. Finally.

Law works in that instead of an eye for an eye, as perhaps it once was in history; we instead hire men to defend us with words; proving key points to award us with cash as our only reparation.

So today, as an attempt to quell my issues, my injuries, my suffering, I am awarded a fair amount of money that will be put into a trust that will allow me to live the rest of my days, whether the past two years affect me later in life or not (it will).

I’ve given thought into all the things I want immediately and then I certainly plan to let it sit and earn interest for me.
To a point I suppose it’s exciting though. As a society we do run on money; how much we have, how much we don’t have, all the wonderful things it can get for us and so on.

So I think having this awarded to me will help. A lot.

I’ll update this after I return from court, as it’s barely even 8:00 now.

[edit goes below here]

So I've returned. With a headache for some reason. Court was a successful endeavor; everything turned out well.
Now I play the waiting game pt2, but it should only be a week, maybe two before things truly begin to kick in.
And I get a new car.
And a laptop.
And a DSi.
And an iPod Touch.
And Pokemon Platinum.
And Resident Evil 5.
And NBA 2k9.
And a Verizon cell phone plan.
And a new phone.
And a new laptop bag.
And some merch from rockabilia.com

And some other things.
But that's the majority.
Of the larger things.
I think.

Wish me luck, I s'pose!

So your face could match your eyes,

2009-03-30T00:04:00.003-04:00

Cold and blue and lifeless.
I’ve got to start off by saying that the band Bayside really does kick ass. Like what a cool group.

Anyway, I forgot to say, but the update to the page should have made it obvious enough to anyone paying any attention that I recently was invited to join a blog group run by denizens living in my area.

It is the link to the right of where you’re reading but I would never make it so easy for you to locate the group. No, in fact I’ll make it easier. Click here to visit the Lowcountry Blog Jam.
Since I do, or rather we do in fact live in the lowcountry area. Or so it’s called.
Though I suppose this is assuming someone will accidentally run across this blog and then somehow grow interested in my rambling. Yeah, you better be interested.

So there isn’t so much on my mind, I suppose. Class and the difficult (or not difficult but lengthy) paper I have due is stuck in my head but that’s easily overlapped by a court settlement on Friday and a meeting with a lawyer on Wednesday.
When I think of that I hope life can and will only get better. But we’re in charge of our own destiny, right? Assuming nothing is predetermined (it’s not) then I am here due to my own actions, be I in control or otherwise. It matters not. Money, which is what should come Friday, is troublesome.

Money doesn’t buy anything other than what material possessions I want.
And material possessions are only a temporary indulgence.
Sure, I want a car. I’ll get a new car.
Sure, I want a computer. Done.
Sure, I want _________. Well I have that now, too.

Only problem (and this is so emo, I know) is that I can’t go out and buy friends. I can’t buy a girlfriend (or well, I suppose I can but who would want that?)

Either way, my confidence has built greatly since 2007 and I think I’m growing back into who I used to be.

But speaking of 2007, I have to get something off my chest I’ve been meaning to argue (but was, at a point, too damaged to). It has to do with a letter I read written to Bluffton Today perhaps around 2007. I’ve been playing a lot of MLB09 The Show and have gotten a new respect for the sport, so this letter is (or was) outrageous now.
It has to do with baseball, yes.

I read a letter in the paper about two years ago that I remember because the person who wrote it was unfortunately an acquaintance of mine and I found him in my life for nearly ten years.
He was trying to argue whether or not baseball was truly a sport, saying that one man can carry an entire team. Obviously he said it was not a sport.

But one man.
With the ability to play nine positions.

Voodoo, maybe, but I was either dumbfounded or amazed. I don’t remember which.
There are great players in baseball, yes. Great players with skill, yes.

But it’s that way with every sport, no?
Did Michael Jordan carry the Chicago Bulls? Not really. He was just good. If not for his supporting cast and coach Phil Jackson they wouldn’t have been nearly as good as they were and Jordan wouldn’t have been either.

A better example: The Boston Celtics. My favorite basketball team is finally a worthwhile, good team. They have three players who are nicknamed the “big three”: Kevin Garnett, Paul Pierce and Ray Allen. Among these three and the entire outfit there isn’t one player, be he starter or otherwise that carries that team. Their coach, Doc Rivers has them play the sport as a team and would you look at their record last season. NBA champions? O rly?

Do single baseball players single-handedly carry their teams to the World Series?
Well of course not. Sure, short stop ‘A’ can be great at bat and on defense but what happens when you have a terrible pitcher? A terrible first, second or third baseman? Terrible outfielders? The list goes on. Defense is just as useful as offense and one man cannot carry a team to a championship. These games, all of them: basketball, baseball, hockey, football, soccer are all team sports and as such require more than one man to carry them.
Elementary, yes, but sometimes you need to teach simple things to people with simple minds.

Implications aside, is baseball a sport? Of course it is. It’s silly to think otherwise. A lot of times it can be far more entertaining than some of the other popular sports in this country (see: American football).

Soccer, or rather real football is awesome though. International soccer anyway. Like go Portugal.

I want a Christiano Ronaldo jersey

Copying someone

2009-03-28T10:46:00.002-04:00

So hello. I know I absolutely never do this and perhaps I should take a break from continuously updating with the most arbitrary things but I suppose it's better than disappointing any readers I may have with the crap I do post on Mondays and Fridays.

So I've decided that I'll mimic someone who recently posted 25 of their "most listened to" iPod songs.
And I am doing that.
To hopefully tell you either I listen to terrible music or that I listen to wonderful music.
Here we go:

1. Iron Maiden- Still Life
2. The Flobots- Mayday!!!
3. The Offspring- You're Gonna go far Kid
4. Busta Rhymes- We Made It (feat. Linkin Park)
5. Red Hot Chili Peppers- Dani California
6. Red Hot Chili Peppers- Don't Forget Me
7. Red Hot Chili Peppers- She's Only 18
8. Sixx AM- Pray for Me
9. Sixx AM- Life is Beautiful
10. Sixx AM- Tomorrow
11. Bad Religion- 21st Century Digital Boy
12. Bad Religion- Infected
13. Reel Big Fish- Suburban Rhythm (the many versions of) [Live]
14. Reel Big Fish- Beer (Live)
15. Reel Big Fish- Beer [Studio]
16. Reel Big Fish- Drinkin' (Live)
17. OK Go- Do What you Want
18. OK Go- Here it Goes Again
19. Scary Kids Scaring Kids- Faces
20. Puddle of Mudd- Psycho
21. Green Day & Oasis- Boulevard of Broken Songs (haha)
22. Guns N' Roses- Live and Let Die
23. Pink Floyd- Wish You Were Here
24. Finger Eleven- So-so Suicide
25. The Exies- Hey You

I did this on a whim, really.
I was interested to find those are my "most listened to" songs especially since a fair number of them I don't regularly listen to anymore. I suppose I did at one point.
Genres jump but they always have with me. I've never been focused on one genre particularly. If it sounds good, then I listen to it.

Wonder what it says though.
Since I agree with the person I am copying: a lot of inferences can be made from the music you listen to.

A quick recap

2009-03-27T12:32:00.003-04:00

Alright.
I have to do a quick recap.

I just played 'Rivalry mode' in MLB09 The Show.
Since I am a Red Sox fan, I obviously played as them against the Yankees.

Now as much as it hurts me to say it, the Yankees are a good team.
But the Red Sox are good as well.

Matsuzaka began the game pitching and did so for perhaps five innings.
When he left the game it was 2-1 Sox winning, so he pitched quite well. He was just getting low on energy.

I brought in Okajima as my pitcher for the next two innings, but the bastard gave up two runs. So it became 2-3 Yankees.

In the 8th I brought in Masterson, my 8th inning set up pitcher and he did wonderfully.

Bottom of the 8th I manage to pull two runs from somewhere. The score becomes 4-3 Sox.
Honestly before these runs I expected a loss but I held through and didn't quit out.

Top of the 9th the heroic Jonathan Papelbon comes in as pitcher to save the game.
And by golly he does.
In the top of the 9th he pulls three outs only putting one man on base and I win the game.

I am making a big deal out of this because baseball is awesome and I dislike the Yankees and Jeter and Rodriguez and so many players.
Even Johnny Damon was drawn to the dark side.

Though it's virtual, it needed be made known the Yankees were beaten.
And by the Red Sox.
It means so much.

Nonetheless, this update absolutely needed be made.

thank you

To travel or not to travel?

2009-03-27T09:39:00.002-04:00

Becoming Oprah-rich. An endeavor that takes most of us our entire lives and then some to do.
I, however, become Oprah-rich next Friday.
Hopefully.

Though I must say, I've yet to get my hopes too high.
Since they've been brought tumbling down on this very subject not long before.

Anyway, I received a text message at something-o'clock this morning from a friend Casey who is, as we speak, in Hawaii.
It made me jealous, since he was telling me about the scenery and whatnot; made me realize I've truly never traveled.

So. As soon as I find the companions to do it with, I am traveling.
South America, Europe, Asia; anywhere that sounds interesting.
Portugal, Ireland, England, Australia, Japan.
Everywhere I can think to go, I'm going.

I've actually spoken to people who have absolutely no interest in seeing what's beyond their front door.
To be so attached to the US and our ways while not even being knowledgeable of how others behave or live. Unbecoming, if you ask me. To be so ignorant and not care.

The planet is likely the largest thing I'll ever be able to explore in my life. So why not do it?
Why not learn as much as I'm able to and go wherever I'm able to?
Why suffer in a 9-5 job in an American urban environment that never changes?
At least, why do that without going everywhere first?

Truly, who's to say that America is such a great land?
Sure the 'land of opportunity' comes to mind and sure, the illegal immigrants are doing great taking advantage of our system now.

While I'm aware you must be employed to live in at least one European country, getting a job is easy, no?

It doesn't matter.
Travel is the single most important thing that I can do with this money.

clever

H m m m . . .

2009-03-23T09:23:00.002-04:00

So this is me attempting to think.
After a mundane weekend that started infuriating and ended with a big ‘blah’ I really have little to no clue as to what topic I should write about.

I’ve been thinking, lately, on an idea for a (perhaps) long story I want to write but one thing I’ve learned over the years is that trying to storm up ideas is always a fruitless effort.
It’s always better when I just can put pen to paper and write, then later edit out everything that needs editing.

Maybe I’ll reconsider that ‘Aku Revolutionaries’ story. As little sense as the name made, perhaps, maybe I’ll reconsider a lot of the plot points but keep some of what I’ve already had written.
That’ll be a lot to do.

The problem with that was, I think, was that I just came up with random excerpts from it while I was in high school. Now, I liked the little bits I wrote but they have no beginning.
And I suppose I need one of those.
There is no plot.
I imagine one of those would be useful; integral to the story.

I'll definitely think on it though.
Two brothers.
Another dude who I never wrote about and his sister who I barely wrote about.

But two brothers.
It's almost four brothers, which was a movie with Mark Wahlberg
It's like four minus two though.

equals two